Today is one of the good days! People ask me all the time, if I'm starting to feel better or more energetic and I always say something like, "Yea, a little" but the truth is, as far as my body goes, I haven't really felt much different. But over the past week or do I have really started noticing a change! Part of it is just due to the fact that I feel better about myself! People are starting to say they can actually SEE a difference, which is Crazy To me! My instant thought when people tell me they can 'tell I'm losing weight' is pshh your just trying to be nice... But since Day 36, when I put on those jeans, I'm really starting to believe what I hear! And THAT feels great! So mostly me 'feeling' better is a brain switch. But today I really FEEL better. Lol. I know that just sounds dumb, but it's my reality!
I got to go to the gym with my sister today and I've really missed that! Last year, when I lost the 36 pounds, the reason why I even got in gear was because she had lost 40 pounds and weighed less than me (by quite a bit at that point because I had gained while she lost) and for most of our adult lives I've weighed less than her. Even if it was only by 5 pounds at some points. So even though I was morbidly obese and she is somewhere around 4 or 5 inches taller than me, I somehow justified that I was ok because she weighed more than me. Does that make any since at all?? Heck no!
I was so proud of myself today I did 30 minutes on the Elitpticle and then 30 minutes on the Arc trainer so I burned some serious calories! And because of my post yesterday, a very nice friend is letting me use her Gazelle and I'm super excited about it!! (**thanks again Angela!) So I got to go pick that up today. My husband had to get on it and act like a total idiot for a little bit but it was entertaining!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Day 41: Crazy Brain
I just can't understand how some days 1500 calories seems like WAY to many, and then some days it seems like I'm starving all day long! I think it's mostly a mind game my brain plays on me as part of the food addiction. It's ridiculous though! As soon as I start getting confident and feel like I'm beginning to conquer this a little more...then I have one of those days where I can't seem to get enough to eat. Well I say Boo on that! Oddly enough, today hasn't been one of those days, I was just thinking about it when I was driving home from dropping off a cake.
Something I've been thinking about....and I even saw this on the biggest loser! Some people will have one high calorie meal per week. Typically after your weigh-in for the week. I have been watching all of the Biggest Loser Seasons and I'm on Season 5 at the moment and last night they had a short little part where Bob Harper talked about the contestants having a high calorie meal once a week after their official weigh-ins on the ranch. He said that gave them something to look forward to during the week and it helped many of the contestants keep from 'cheating' throughout the week. I have been giving this some serious thought...and I'm thinking I just might try it out for a few weeks. Bob said that having the high calorie meal helps jump-start your metabolism and actually helps Increase weight-loss throughout the week!! I figure I'll give it a try for the next few weeks and see how it goes...if I don't like the results, then I'll go back to doing it the other way.
We just finally took down our Christmas Tree, (things have been CRAZY lately!) and we put it where we usually keep an ottoman...I have decided that I'm going to move my exercise bike there...maybe that will encourage me to get a little extra Cardio in at home! I really REALLY wish I could get an eliptical or gazelle or something like that...they burn a ton of calories and I really enjoy them. :(
Thanks for reading!
<3 Honor
Something I've been thinking about....and I even saw this on the biggest loser! Some people will have one high calorie meal per week. Typically after your weigh-in for the week. I have been watching all of the Biggest Loser Seasons and I'm on Season 5 at the moment and last night they had a short little part where Bob Harper talked about the contestants having a high calorie meal once a week after their official weigh-ins on the ranch. He said that gave them something to look forward to during the week and it helped many of the contestants keep from 'cheating' throughout the week. I have been giving this some serious thought...and I'm thinking I just might try it out for a few weeks. Bob said that having the high calorie meal helps jump-start your metabolism and actually helps Increase weight-loss throughout the week!! I figure I'll give it a try for the next few weeks and see how it goes...if I don't like the results, then I'll go back to doing it the other way.
We just finally took down our Christmas Tree, (things have been CRAZY lately!) and we put it where we usually keep an ottoman...I have decided that I'm going to move my exercise bike there...maybe that will encourage me to get a little extra Cardio in at home! I really REALLY wish I could get an eliptical or gazelle or something like that...they burn a ton of calories and I really enjoy them. :(
Thanks for reading!
<3 Honor
Friday, January 6, 2012
Day 40: Jello Legs
I can't believe how long it took me to get over those meds this time! I was still pretty sluggish most of the day yesterday. I didn't make it to the gym again, because I just felt to weak to do anything. I ended up sitting in my oversized chair and watching the Biggest Loser most of the day. So today and tomorrow, I have two
Days to make up for and I'm not excited about it! I've made peace with the fact that I'm most likely not going to reach my initial goal of 100 pounds by the end of this challenge, but I knew it was a stretch when I decided on it. I'm really just concerned about seeing a smaller number each and every week, even if it's one pound. I definitely want to see more than that each week, but the main goal is to lose weight and find a healthier version of me that can hopefully carry a baby to full term, happy and healthy and then stay healthy for the rest of my life so that my husband and I and whatever family we are blessed with, can have a wonderful life together. ;) THAT'S the main goal. So anything that gets me closer to that goal is two thumbs up in my book!!
I feel EXTREMELY successful today! I met with my personal trainer and I'd some aerobic and weight training exercises, and then I went to the elipticle. I had planned to do 20 minutes, but ended up pushing through to 30, which made me feel great after missing two days. So I go to the locker room for a visit to the bathroom before I come home and I was thinking, "Am I really to tired to do anything else? Or can I push in a little more Cardio?" so I went upstairs and got on the satanic Arc Trainer...and I somehow survived ANOTHER 30 minutes! I was beside myself with excitement! My legs did feel like jello though!!
Good night all!
<3 Honor
Days to make up for and I'm not excited about it! I've made peace with the fact that I'm most likely not going to reach my initial goal of 100 pounds by the end of this challenge, but I knew it was a stretch when I decided on it. I'm really just concerned about seeing a smaller number each and every week, even if it's one pound. I definitely want to see more than that each week, but the main goal is to lose weight and find a healthier version of me that can hopefully carry a baby to full term, happy and healthy and then stay healthy for the rest of my life so that my husband and I and whatever family we are blessed with, can have a wonderful life together. ;) THAT'S the main goal. So anything that gets me closer to that goal is two thumbs up in my book!!
I feel EXTREMELY successful today! I met with my personal trainer and I'd some aerobic and weight training exercises, and then I went to the elipticle. I had planned to do 20 minutes, but ended up pushing through to 30, which made me feel great after missing two days. So I go to the locker room for a visit to the bathroom before I come home and I was thinking, "Am I really to tired to do anything else? Or can I push in a little more Cardio?" so I went upstairs and got on the satanic Arc Trainer...and I somehow survived ANOTHER 30 minutes! I was beside myself with excitement! My legs did feel like jello though!!
Good night all!
<3 Honor
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Day 38 & 39: Root Canal Survival
As I said on Day 37, I had a root canal yesterday. My dentist gives some great meds that keep me from stressing out to bad and they're try much knock me out. My appointment was at 1:30 yesterday afternoon and I slept until after 11am today! The good thing with that is that I'm really not in much pain at all. I feel sluggish and a little overhangish, haha, but I'm ok as long as I don't try to open my mouth to wide. :)
In Ypump on Tuesday, which would have been day 37, we did these things called pyramids. You start with a smaller weight for me that was a 3 pound one, and you do 15 reps of an exercise, then you go up to your next weight, 5 pounds for me, and don15 more. Then you go up to your heaviest weight, mine was a 12 pound bar, and do 30 reps, the. Back to the middle weight for 15 more, and 15 on the smallest weight. That's the pyramid 15-15-30-15-15....and my trainer had us do this MULTIPLE different ways! Ooouch!!! So needless to say, I am extremely sore...still!
My mouth is hurting me tonight, so I am going to end this now and head to bed with some pain killers :)
<3 Honor
In Ypump on Tuesday, which would have been day 37, we did these things called pyramids. You start with a smaller weight for me that was a 3 pound one, and you do 15 reps of an exercise, then you go up to your next weight, 5 pounds for me, and don15 more. Then you go up to your heaviest weight, mine was a 12 pound bar, and do 30 reps, the. Back to the middle weight for 15 more, and 15 on the smallest weight. That's the pyramid 15-15-30-15-15....and my trainer had us do this MULTIPLE different ways! Ooouch!!! So needless to say, I am extremely sore...still!
My mouth is hurting me tonight, so I am going to end this now and head to bed with some pain killers :)
<3 Honor
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Day 37: Weigh-In Number Five
Today was probably the scariest weigh-in for me, simply because I
felt like I hadn't made the best choices this week. I even went over my calories one night for the first time in 37 days! Plus on Saturday I went to a wedding and ate Fried Chicken, with green beans, mashed potatoes, corn and a roll! My only saving grace there was that I had very small portions! And I had a small piece of wedding cake!! Needless to say, I could have done 10x's better this week than I did. But...I still exceeded my own expectations this morning when I hopped on that scale. I was Hoping and praying that I didn't GAIN any weight...and I didn't. I LOST 2 pounds!! Oh yea! So now I weigh 308.4. And have lost 42 pounds!! I can't wait to get back below 300!! I've been above 275 for probably 5 years or more. But I've only been over 300 for the last year or so. And that is really hard on me mentally. So to get back below the 300 mark will be fantastic! And then I'm headed for under 275, since I have been over that one for so long! When I got married in February of 2003, I'm pretty sure I was somewhere around 220-230ish. I'm not quite sure exactly what it was because I was in denial, even then. So I know that if I get below 220 I will definitely be smaller than my husband has ever seen me. THAT would be a Great feeling! But I have quite a long ways to go before I can even really think about that! The crazy thing is that for the first time, I really feel like my goals are achievable...I really, honestly and truly believe that I am going to get there! It's just going to take a little time. And I have to stay focused!! Losing focus would be detrimental to this journey.
I had a great thing happen to me today at Ypump. I was wearing some workout pants that I purchased at Vanity Fair after I found out I was accepted into the YMCA's fitness challenge. And when I bought them they were really snug. But since they were made of elastic and stretchy material, I went ahead and got them. At that point everything was so snug it was getting embarrassing anyways! But I wear the biggest size you can buy at Fashion Bug, Cato, or Lane Bryant. And I outgrew Walmart's pants a few years ago. So anyways, I'm wearing these pants that I really like to wear because they are super comfortable and one of my friends says..."Hey Honor, those pants are getting a little loose aren't they?" I looked down and was like, wow! I guess they are! My first thought, was instinctive...maybe I stretched them out! But no, I didn't. I'm just REALLY doing this! I've NEVER lost enough weight that my clothes fit differently. I've always dreamed about it...but never made it a reality...I'm LOVING THIS!!
Tomorrow I have a root canal and my wonderful Dentist prescribes me a "cocktail" of three different meds so that I'm good and relaxed and don't stress out to much about the procedures. This is my first root canal and I'm thoroughly terrified. But excited to get my tooth fixed! So needless to say, with those meds in me, I'm not sure if I'll be able to blog tomorrow! But please keep me in your prayers tomorrow!
Thanks everyone for taking the time to read my blog and for all of your support so far in this journey! I appreciate you!!
<3 Honor
felt like I hadn't made the best choices this week. I even went over my calories one night for the first time in 37 days! Plus on Saturday I went to a wedding and ate Fried Chicken, with green beans, mashed potatoes, corn and a roll! My only saving grace there was that I had very small portions! And I had a small piece of wedding cake!! Needless to say, I could have done 10x's better this week than I did. But...I still exceeded my own expectations this morning when I hopped on that scale. I was Hoping and praying that I didn't GAIN any weight...and I didn't. I LOST 2 pounds!! Oh yea! So now I weigh 308.4. And have lost 42 pounds!! I can't wait to get back below 300!! I've been above 275 for probably 5 years or more. But I've only been over 300 for the last year or so. And that is really hard on me mentally. So to get back below the 300 mark will be fantastic! And then I'm headed for under 275, since I have been over that one for so long! When I got married in February of 2003, I'm pretty sure I was somewhere around 220-230ish. I'm not quite sure exactly what it was because I was in denial, even then. So I know that if I get below 220 I will definitely be smaller than my husband has ever seen me. THAT would be a Great feeling! But I have quite a long ways to go before I can even really think about that! The crazy thing is that for the first time, I really feel like my goals are achievable...I really, honestly and truly believe that I am going to get there! It's just going to take a little time. And I have to stay focused!! Losing focus would be detrimental to this journey.
I had a great thing happen to me today at Ypump. I was wearing some workout pants that I purchased at Vanity Fair after I found out I was accepted into the YMCA's fitness challenge. And when I bought them they were really snug. But since they were made of elastic and stretchy material, I went ahead and got them. At that point everything was so snug it was getting embarrassing anyways! But I wear the biggest size you can buy at Fashion Bug, Cato, or Lane Bryant. And I outgrew Walmart's pants a few years ago. So anyways, I'm wearing these pants that I really like to wear because they are super comfortable and one of my friends says..."Hey Honor, those pants are getting a little loose aren't they?" I looked down and was like, wow! I guess they are! My first thought, was instinctive...maybe I stretched them out! But no, I didn't. I'm just REALLY doing this! I've NEVER lost enough weight that my clothes fit differently. I've always dreamed about it...but never made it a reality...I'm LOVING THIS!!
Tomorrow I have a root canal and my wonderful Dentist prescribes me a "cocktail" of three different meds so that I'm good and relaxed and don't stress out to much about the procedures. This is my first root canal and I'm thoroughly terrified. But excited to get my tooth fixed! So needless to say, with those meds in me, I'm not sure if I'll be able to blog tomorrow! But please keep me in your prayers tomorrow!
Thanks everyone for taking the time to read my blog and for all of your support so far in this journey! I appreciate you!!
<3 Honor
Monday, January 2, 2012
Day 36: Hello there jeans!
36 days ago I had one pair of jeans that fit me. Four or five months ago I decided I needed more than one pair that fit well, so I went to Fashion Bug to get me a pair. The pair I had was a 30 (I wear a 26/28 in everything BUT jeans) so I went in to buy me another pair. I tried on four different styles and not a single pair was comfortable. I settled on a pair, thinking that if I'd lose 'a few pounds' they would fit better. I wore them to see a movie (which is already an uncomfortable thing since the seats are not 'fat-friendly') and between the seats squeezing my hips so bad that I had bruises and the pants being so tight I thought I would be sick, I was miserable when I made it home and cried myself to sleep. So those jeans went in the closet to stay until I lost weight. Well today, I decided to see how they feel...and they fit!! I was so excited!!!
Today was a really great day! Although it is eleven and I haven't worked out yet...but I WILL before I go to bed! I went to Cape today with my good friend Ariel & her boyfriend, to try to get some things I needed for a western themed bridal shower cake I'm making this week and I found some really great stuff!! Really excited to make this cake because it's going to be awesome!
On my little outing we stopped for dinner at Chick-fil-a and I had a reall tasty dinner that didn't make me feel guilty. :) I had some of their sinfully amazing chicken nuggets and a side salad. I had quite a few calories by dinner so I enjoyed croutons and sunflower seeds in my salad with Ranch dressing! And let me tell ya...those folks know how to make an awesome side salad!!
So I ended up having a really great day and now I have to get in a workout!!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor :-)
Today was a really great day! Although it is eleven and I haven't worked out yet...but I WILL before I go to bed! I went to Cape today with my good friend Ariel & her boyfriend, to try to get some things I needed for a western themed bridal shower cake I'm making this week and I found some really great stuff!! Really excited to make this cake because it's going to be awesome!
On my little outing we stopped for dinner at Chick-fil-a and I had a reall tasty dinner that didn't make me feel guilty. :) I had some of their sinfully amazing chicken nuggets and a side salad. I had quite a few calories by dinner so I enjoyed croutons and sunflower seeds in my salad with Ranch dressing! And let me tell ya...those folks know how to make an awesome side salad!!
So I ended up having a really great day and now I have to get in a workout!!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor :-)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Day 35: Happy New Year, What's your Resolution?
It is is New Year, some say it's a time for new beginnings. Many make New Year' Resolutions...my pastor this morning said that by January 31st typically 60% of the people who made New Year's Resolutions have already given up! And by Valentine's Day (only two weeks later) it goes up to 75%!!! I am so glad I started my journey in November instead of January 1st!! Because I SURE don't want to become a statistic!
As the new year begins I find myself a little defensive about my gym time. So many people use the beginning of a New Year to commit to losing weight and working out...so what that means for me is that my special gym time is about to be compromised. There will be people littering the Zumba and Ypump classes and the Fitness room and I can't help but be sad about it! I seriously had an instinctive 'ugly' thought! I thought, well heck, 75% of these people will give up by Valentine's Day, so why don't they just give up now! Ha! No, no Honor that's not nice! But hey, what can I say, I'm human!
So my Resolution is to 'not have a resolution', but to make a commitment to myself (it's different, I promise!) to continue with this journey making it one of the top priorities in my life, not THE top priority, because that's reserved for God. And then my hubby, and a few other things. But this journey definitely has to be a lot higher on the list than it has been in past failed attempts. And so far, so good!
Everywhere I go I am confronted by temptations! I went to a birthday party of a very good friend (Olivia)'s daughter and there was cupcakes and ice cream, and lots of other yummy stuff but I did pretty ok and ended my day within my calorie goal, because I stayed Away from the cake and ice cream! And then I go to the gas station and when I walk in there is the distinctively delicious aroma of Pizza! Argh! But I held my head high and walked out with a Dasani! Then I get to my mom and dad's house and find myself being tempted again! BUT, as I said, I survived...thank God!
I think I'm ready to start off my year and I will do it one day at a time! I have high expectations for this year so I'm going to have to stay focused and determined!
Thank you for reading friends!
<3 Honor
As the new year begins I find myself a little defensive about my gym time. So many people use the beginning of a New Year to commit to losing weight and working out...so what that means for me is that my special gym time is about to be compromised. There will be people littering the Zumba and Ypump classes and the Fitness room and I can't help but be sad about it! I seriously had an instinctive 'ugly' thought! I thought, well heck, 75% of these people will give up by Valentine's Day, so why don't they just give up now! Ha! No, no Honor that's not nice! But hey, what can I say, I'm human!
So my Resolution is to 'not have a resolution', but to make a commitment to myself (it's different, I promise!) to continue with this journey making it one of the top priorities in my life, not THE top priority, because that's reserved for God. And then my hubby, and a few other things. But this journey definitely has to be a lot higher on the list than it has been in past failed attempts. And so far, so good!
Everywhere I go I am confronted by temptations! I went to a birthday party of a very good friend (Olivia)'s daughter and there was cupcakes and ice cream, and lots of other yummy stuff but I did pretty ok and ended my day within my calorie goal, because I stayed Away from the cake and ice cream! And then I go to the gas station and when I walk in there is the distinctively delicious aroma of Pizza! Argh! But I held my head high and walked out with a Dasani! Then I get to my mom and dad's house and find myself being tempted again! BUT, as I said, I survived...thank God!
I think I'm ready to start off my year and I will do it one day at a time! I have high expectations for this year so I'm going to have to stay focused and determined!
Thank you for reading friends!
<3 Honor
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