I have been completely honest about the fact that I am an every day weigher...I probably always would even when I'm wasn't 'dieting' if the scale ever said something nice to me. I used to get on after avoiding for a few months and just hope I had lost weight for some unknown reason. It never happened. But I always hoped. Ever since Wednesday of last week I have not seen ANYTHING I want from that darn scale. I didn't weigh one morning and then the next day it said I had GAINED 2 pounds...what? That's not possible! I didn't cheat! So I get on every morning and it says the SAME thing! So yea...now I'm ticked! A plateau is when your weight loss stops...not goes up!
I do, however, have a plan. My sister read somewhere that when you are having issues you can have a really high calorie day (like 2500 cals) followed by a really low one (like 1000 cals) so that's what I'm doing. I did probably 2400-2500 yesterday, an as long as I don't screw up today, I will be right at 1000. Whew...this is stressing me out!
I NEED to keep seeing smaller numbers on that scale...I just can't handle it not moving or going up! I'm in a fragile state! Lol that just sounded dumb, but it really is kindof true! The past few weeks have been getting increasingly difficult for me...I don't like 2 pounds a week. I want 5-7, and I don't have enough time (or energy) to workout as much as it would take to reach that...so I keep trudging along...
I promise I'm ok...I just really have to figure this out!
Tonight after work I get to go workout with my momma, so that will be fun. ! I like getting to share this with her and encourage her. After all, most of my bad habits were taught to me by her...and she really honestly just doesn't know how to do better. That is, besides what she has learned from Dr. Oz.! If he says it, she Believes it! But she doesn't really recognize the severity of her food addiction. So I want to help her. :) helping other people helps me! So it's a win/win!
Have an awesome day friends!
<3 Honor
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Day 48: BA-Da-Bing!
For those of you that have been reading for a while you might remember a really weird goal that I have. Which is to lose enough inches round my waist so that I can measure them with one measuring tape.
I'm almost there!! It's really hard for me to stretch out a measuring tape and realize that I am literally that big around! But slowly...like a turtle, I'm getting there!
Last week when I weighed in I was about a half of an inch away from having that measuring tape touch!! I'm so excited about it! I fully expect to have this goal in the bag really soon! Making little goals like that may seem silly to some people, but for me having a bunch of small goals keep me going! So I have two goals that I'm getting close to: dropping that three off the front of my number, and getting it down to one measuring tape...I'm READY! I can't wait to get started in my next goals!
My next set of goals are getting under 275 and to lose a foot. I'm sure that last one doesn't make any sense, but in Honor World it does!! I want to lose 12 inches. That's a combined total of the different areas I measure: neck, bust, waist, & hips. The inches come off even slower that the weight, but it's really nice when the scale isn't doing much for ya and you measure yourself and then BA-Da-BING! You lost some inches!!
Good night!
<3 Honor
I'm almost there!! It's really hard for me to stretch out a measuring tape and realize that I am literally that big around! But slowly...like a turtle, I'm getting there!
Last week when I weighed in I was about a half of an inch away from having that measuring tape touch!! I'm so excited about it! I fully expect to have this goal in the bag really soon! Making little goals like that may seem silly to some people, but for me having a bunch of small goals keep me going! So I have two goals that I'm getting close to: dropping that three off the front of my number, and getting it down to one measuring tape...I'm READY! I can't wait to get started in my next goals!
My next set of goals are getting under 275 and to lose a foot. I'm sure that last one doesn't make any sense, but in Honor World it does!! I want to lose 12 inches. That's a combined total of the different areas I measure: neck, bust, waist, & hips. The inches come off even slower that the weight, but it's really nice when the scale isn't doing much for ya and you measure yourself and then BA-Da-BING! You lost some inches!!
Good night!
<3 Honor
Friday, January 13, 2012
Day 47: My new motto
My new motto is: Cook when your in the mood so ya don't have to when your NOT in the mood. I love it! I decided a few days ago that I needed pre-cook some different foods that I like and pre-portion them into servings and freeze them. So that way when I come home from a long tiring day and I'm ready to grab some take out on the way or eat something that isn't good for me, I'll have these meals all done up and ready to be consumed!
I made a pot of my healthy chili (only 162 calories per serving), some Taco meat (for taco salads), and four batches of Stir-Fry. I love me some stir-fry! I buy the Bird's Eye Oriental kind (in the frozen section at Wal-Mart) and I LOOOOOVE it. It has all kinds of vegetables on it that I would never eat alone, but when it's all mixed in together and with the sauce it's sooo tasty! And only 50 calories a cup!! You just can't beat that! So I have it with a serving of boneless skinless chicken tenderloin diced up and a 1/2 cup of brown rice. Mmmm-nom-nom...yea I'm so having that for dinner again!
Today was a pretty good day again... Work was not busy as far as shooting, but I got the pleasure of taking some pics of a musician (one of my associate's husband) for his album cover and had a good visit and got to listen to some live music for awhile! So that was a really neat few hours of my day!
Today is a no workout day and I hate that! But ten hours of work after being off for my vacation is just all I can do today. I could go in and go to sleep right now. Literally. And I've only been up for a little over 12 hours!! I am very fortunate to not have sleep apnea or anything like that. In fact, I would be very happy with 10 hours of sleep a night. I'm really hoping that as I get more and more fit that I will be able to sleep for 7 or 8 hours and not feel like I'm getting jipped! That would be so great!!
Thanks for reading! You are amazing!! Remember, Every day when you wake up you have 100% control over how your day is going to go despite the circumstances! Make tomorrow a GREAT day, and I'll join you! People tend to let one 15 minute encounter with a cranky or inconsiderate person ruin their day. Why? Let it roll off and move on with your Great day and don't let them spoil it! God is amazing! You are amazing! And I'M getting healthy and fit!-with both God's help AND yours. :-) So thanks!
<3 Honor
I made a pot of my healthy chili (only 162 calories per serving), some Taco meat (for taco salads), and four batches of Stir-Fry. I love me some stir-fry! I buy the Bird's Eye Oriental kind (in the frozen section at Wal-Mart) and I LOOOOOVE it. It has all kinds of vegetables on it that I would never eat alone, but when it's all mixed in together and with the sauce it's sooo tasty! And only 50 calories a cup!! You just can't beat that! So I have it with a serving of boneless skinless chicken tenderloin diced up and a 1/2 cup of brown rice. Mmmm-nom-nom...yea I'm so having that for dinner again!
Today was a pretty good day again... Work was not busy as far as shooting, but I got the pleasure of taking some pics of a musician (one of my associate's husband) for his album cover and had a good visit and got to listen to some live music for awhile! So that was a really neat few hours of my day!
Today is a no workout day and I hate that! But ten hours of work after being off for my vacation is just all I can do today. I could go in and go to sleep right now. Literally. And I've only been up for a little over 12 hours!! I am very fortunate to not have sleep apnea or anything like that. In fact, I would be very happy with 10 hours of sleep a night. I'm really hoping that as I get more and more fit that I will be able to sleep for 7 or 8 hours and not feel like I'm getting jipped! That would be so great!!
Thanks for reading! You are amazing!! Remember, Every day when you wake up you have 100% control over how your day is going to go despite the circumstances! Make tomorrow a GREAT day, and I'll join you! People tend to let one 15 minute encounter with a cranky or inconsiderate person ruin their day. Why? Let it roll off and move on with your Great day and don't let them spoil it! God is amazing! You are amazing! And I'M getting healthy and fit!-with both God's help AND yours. :-) So thanks!
<3 Honor
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Day 46: My Ah-HA! moment :)
On my way in to work today I had an "Ah-HA!" moment. Time for confessions...I put on my make-up on my way to work almost every day. There....I said it. Don't be mad at me ;) I'm actually quite good at it. I've done it for so long that I barely look away from the road while putting it on. Honestly I'm sure I look away from the road more when I have a companion in the car than I do while applying my make-up. But anyways...my Ah-HA moment happened today while applying my make-up because while I was on vacation I only wore make-up two or three times (and it was two and a half weeks) and I put it on in the house. So I haven't looked at myself in the rear-view mirror in that length of time. So I pull my mirror down to put on my make-up and this morning and there it was...Ah-HA!! My face really IS starting to slim up! Lol! People have been telling me that for a few weeks now, and it's not that I didn't believe...I jut couldn't see it...and I SAW today. It was a really nice vanity boost for the day!
The entire duration of my vacation I struggled to drink the amount of water that I know my body needs for weight-loss. I'm not sure why I had the trouble, but I sure did! Before my vacation I was averaging 10-12 8oz cups a day! Which is still a little less than my body needs for the weight that I'm at. The way you're supposed to figure how much water you should consume in a day is to take your total weight (306 for me) and divide it in half (306/3=153) and that's how many ounces of water you should drink per day. The easy way to figure how many cups that is, is to take that number (153), and divide by 8oz. (153/8=19.125) so my body should be getting 19-8oz glasses of water a day!! I just can't drink that much! So I strive for 12, and usually do ok with that. However, on my vacation I was lucky to reach 6-8 per day!! It was so hard! So now that I'm back to work I've already had 10 and I still have some time to do even better! So I just thought it was crazy that I struggled so badly at home, but found it easy at work. Weird!
I went to the gym after work and when I was changing in to my workout clothes I discovered something that really made me sad. For the past three or four years I have been dealing with fluid retention in my ankles that has worsened over time and is quite painful. But since day one of this journey I've had absolutely no swelling. But when I changed clothes I noticed both of my ankles were swollen really badly. Well crap. There goes my streak! I can't figure out why it happened either...no extra sodium, no prolonged standing...I worked on a cake last week for nearly 6 hours straight of standing and no swelling, so the idea of it possibly being because I returned to work doesn't make since because I wasn't on my feet all day. I don't know, but I DO know that I don't like it!
Here it is, almost 9:00, and I'm just now getting home to have dinner! I can't help it though...I get off at 7 and I just went and did 35 minutes on the Elipticle tonight. ThatH's it. And now I'm having dinner late. I just can't think of any other way I can adjust my schedule so that it works out differently. But I'm defIinitely hungry so good night!
<3 Honor
The entire duration of my vacation I struggled to drink the amount of water that I know my body needs for weight-loss. I'm not sure why I had the trouble, but I sure did! Before my vacation I was averaging 10-12 8oz cups a day! Which is still a little less than my body needs for the weight that I'm at. The way you're supposed to figure how much water you should consume in a day is to take your total weight (306 for me) and divide it in half (306/3=153) and that's how many ounces of water you should drink per day. The easy way to figure how many cups that is, is to take that number (153), and divide by 8oz. (153/8=19.125) so my body should be getting 19-8oz glasses of water a day!! I just can't drink that much! So I strive for 12, and usually do ok with that. However, on my vacation I was lucky to reach 6-8 per day!! It was so hard! So now that I'm back to work I've already had 10 and I still have some time to do even better! So I just thought it was crazy that I struggled so badly at home, but found it easy at work. Weird!
I went to the gym after work and when I was changing in to my workout clothes I discovered something that really made me sad. For the past three or four years I have been dealing with fluid retention in my ankles that has worsened over time and is quite painful. But since day one of this journey I've had absolutely no swelling. But when I changed clothes I noticed both of my ankles were swollen really badly. Well crap. There goes my streak! I can't figure out why it happened either...no extra sodium, no prolonged standing...I worked on a cake last week for nearly 6 hours straight of standing and no swelling, so the idea of it possibly being because I returned to work doesn't make since because I wasn't on my feet all day. I don't know, but I DO know that I don't like it!
Here it is, almost 9:00, and I'm just now getting home to have dinner! I can't help it though...I get off at 7 and I just went and did 35 minutes on the Elipticle tonight. ThatH's it. And now I'm having dinner late. I just can't think of any other way I can adjust my schedule so that it works out differently. But I'm defIinitely hungry so good night!
<3 Honor
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Day 45: Mixed feelings
Okay, so I go back to work tomorrow and I can't decide how I feel about it. Part of me is really excited to go back to work because I do love my job most of the time. But, I've always really wanted to be a stay at home wife. To be able to do photography as a side job, and make cakes as a side job. But, we just aren't financially stable enough for me to take such a big risk at this time. I'm also apprehensive about changing my workout schedule. Over the past 2 1/2 weeks I've been able to pretty much go to the gym as often as I want to. I don't have to get up early, and I don't have to stay late after work and have a late dinner. I guess that's the part that I'm sad about the most. The way my regional director has the managers working hours, I'm going to be working all whole lot more than I was before Christmas. And also, since I lost my Arial, she was full-time and now I don't have a full-timer to work around. Which means I'm going to be expected to work more hours. I say boo on that! I just gotten very comfortable with the way the studio has been going for the past few years and change is not good for on Honor!
I had another great night at the gym tonight! I did an hour of strength training, and then 90 minutes of Zumba! which had me leaving almost 2200 calories at the gym! Woohoo!! I absolutely love the fact that I am able to push myself hard enough to do 2 1/2 hours of constant working out in one visit to the gym. That, in its self, proves to me how far I have come in the past 45 days! I love it!
Thanks for reading my friends! I love you all!
<3 Honor
I had another great night at the gym tonight! I did an hour of strength training, and then 90 minutes of Zumba! which had me leaving almost 2200 calories at the gym! Woohoo!! I absolutely love the fact that I am able to push myself hard enough to do 2 1/2 hours of constant working out in one visit to the gym. That, in its self, proves to me how far I have come in the past 45 days! I love it!
Thanks for reading my friends! I love you all!
<3 Honor
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Day 44: Weigh-In Number Six!
Today marks six weeks that I have been on this journey. I feel stronger than ever! It has been far from easy, but I've survived it! I could put the six weeks under a microscope and tell you probably a hundred different times I could have made a smarter or healthier decision. I have been far from perfect! I've missed some workouts, I've eaten things that I knew dang good and well I shouldn't be eating, but one thing has been different that I always screwed up previously. I haven't given up! In previous attempts at weight-loss, if I would 'cheat' and have a candy bar or a small piece of cake I would convince myself that I had screwed up my diet that day so I might as well go ahead and grab some fast food for dinner and hey while we're at lets get a blizzard too! I'll try again tomorrow....and then tomorrow never came...I would wake up the next morning and just completely abandon the plan. So THAT'S what has been different this time.
One night, maybe a week ago, I was sitting in my chair watching The Biggest Loser (you'll see the irony in that in a sec), and I glance at the end table and spot a little Rubbermaid tub that my mom had given my husband at Christmas...inside that tub was about 15 pieces of peanut butter fudge (my weakness) and I was home alone (BAD idea)...so I picked up the container with the idea to 'just sniff it' HA! Nope...I sat there and ate THREE pieces (450 calories), stopping between each piece and putting the container back. I finally regained control of myself...had a little cry...and went to bed. I slept like crap that night and was sick to my stomach all night long. But instead of waking up the next morning and giving up or feeling guilty I went and did an extra 30 minutes on the elipticle (usually about 500 calories burned) and felt better about my screw up. And I didn't log either one in MFP because I was being silly and didn't want anyone to say something to me about it so in my mind I 'fixed' it by burning as many calories as I had eaten.
As you can obviously see, I'm not perfect. I'm not going to be, because I'm HUMAN! And one of the big side-goals I have on this journey is to gain some self-discipline, of which I have Zero. That's actually what I feel is making this journey so difficult for me. The phrase "fake it till you make it" has a whole new meaning for me!! Because I'm 'faking' self-discipline until I get me some! And little instances like the one I just explained are the prime example of my lack there of!
So today is my sixth weigh-in for the challenge and 7 days ago I weighed 308.4, today I weighed exactly 306.4
Which is another two pounds and a total loss of 43.6 (I say 44) :) do this means that I am 7.4 pounds away from beating the 300's once and for all!! And I plan to be telling you that I've done that on my week 8 weigh-in. I have lost 5 inches from my hips, which is exciting to me, and 2 inches from my waist! Yay!! I can't wait to see what the next 6 weeks brings me!!
Thank you so much for following my journey and for encouraging me! Even if you don't comment or message me in Facebook I know you are reading, because approximately 30-40 people a day read my blog. :) (I love that I can see how many people read!) so thank you for just being there!!
<3 Honor
One night, maybe a week ago, I was sitting in my chair watching The Biggest Loser (you'll see the irony in that in a sec), and I glance at the end table and spot a little Rubbermaid tub that my mom had given my husband at Christmas...inside that tub was about 15 pieces of peanut butter fudge (my weakness) and I was home alone (BAD idea)...so I picked up the container with the idea to 'just sniff it' HA! Nope...I sat there and ate THREE pieces (450 calories), stopping between each piece and putting the container back. I finally regained control of myself...had a little cry...and went to bed. I slept like crap that night and was sick to my stomach all night long. But instead of waking up the next morning and giving up or feeling guilty I went and did an extra 30 minutes on the elipticle (usually about 500 calories burned) and felt better about my screw up. And I didn't log either one in MFP because I was being silly and didn't want anyone to say something to me about it so in my mind I 'fixed' it by burning as many calories as I had eaten.
As you can obviously see, I'm not perfect. I'm not going to be, because I'm HUMAN! And one of the big side-goals I have on this journey is to gain some self-discipline, of which I have Zero. That's actually what I feel is making this journey so difficult for me. The phrase "fake it till you make it" has a whole new meaning for me!! Because I'm 'faking' self-discipline until I get me some! And little instances like the one I just explained are the prime example of my lack there of!
So today is my sixth weigh-in for the challenge and 7 days ago I weighed 308.4, today I weighed exactly 306.4
Which is another two pounds and a total loss of 43.6 (I say 44) :) do this means that I am 7.4 pounds away from beating the 300's once and for all!! And I plan to be telling you that I've done that on my week 8 weigh-in. I have lost 5 inches from my hips, which is exciting to me, and 2 inches from my waist! Yay!! I can't wait to see what the next 6 weeks brings me!!
Thank you so much for following my journey and for encouraging me! Even if you don't comment or message me in Facebook I know you are reading, because approximately 30-40 people a day read my blog. :) (I love that I can see how many people read!) so thank you for just being there!!
<3 Honor
Monday, January 9, 2012
Day 43: Time flys when your having fun!
I can't believe I've been on vacation for two weeks! I go back to work on Thursday and I honestly haven't gotten a quarter of the things done that I wanted to! I guess it really almost always goes that way though. It doesn't help that I spent the whole first week sick and then the root canal last week took out two days. Boo! I really wish we had the finances from Jamie's job for me to be able to stay at home and do cakes and photography in the side, but we just don't.
Today I went back to the Dentist to have my teeth cleaned. It was a big deal to me because I haven't had them cleaned since I quit smoking and that was 21 months ago! Actually I'm pretty sure it was over a year Prior to quitting when I had them cleaned last! So I'd say I was LONG overdue! After getting my teeth cleaned, I went and did 30 minutes on the elipticle so I feel like a have a head start on my workout today. :-) I'm going to Zumba later with my sis, and since I was only able to go once last week, I'm really excited about going! The class I went to last week had over 50 ppl in a 35 max. Capacity room and I heard that the next day they had so many people there that there were people doing Zumba in the hallway! I like Zumba but I AM NOT doing it in a hallway! Lol!
Today has been another really good day so far, but because of the root canal on Wednesday I just don't think I'm going to see the number on the scale that I want to tomorrow. :-( as long as its a loss I'm not going to get frustrated...but I would REALLY love to see some 3 or 4 pound weeks instead of 2 or maybe even only 1 this week!
I tried out the gazelle last night and it was freaking me out! I've never used one before and it was definitely cracking me up. It was kindof like my left leg didn't want to do it, but my right one did! So weird! But I did 10 minutes and burned 100 calories! Not as many as the elipticle or the arc trainer but more than the stationary bike, I believe. I'm just excited to have a form of Cardio sitting in my living room! It's a constant reminder of my goals and I like it!
I've included a picture in my blog today...I'm blogging from my phone so I don't know where the picture is going to show up, but it is obviously a chair. But THIS chair, and those like it, have been my mortal enemy for my entire adult life. I have NEVER fit into those things. And I HATE it. Mostly because everybody has them...and most of the time it's the only style of lawn chair people have...so what do I do? Sit on a porch or just stand...and being fat...I'm not a fan of standing for long periods of time! I can't WAIT for the day that I post a picture of me SITTING in one of those chairs! That will be the day! And I am Soooo ready!
Have a good one my friends!
<3 Honor
Today I went back to the Dentist to have my teeth cleaned. It was a big deal to me because I haven't had them cleaned since I quit smoking and that was 21 months ago! Actually I'm pretty sure it was over a year Prior to quitting when I had them cleaned last! So I'd say I was LONG overdue! After getting my teeth cleaned, I went and did 30 minutes on the elipticle so I feel like a have a head start on my workout today. :-) I'm going to Zumba later with my sis, and since I was only able to go once last week, I'm really excited about going! The class I went to last week had over 50 ppl in a 35 max. Capacity room and I heard that the next day they had so many people there that there were people doing Zumba in the hallway! I like Zumba but I AM NOT doing it in a hallway! Lol!
Today has been another really good day so far, but because of the root canal on Wednesday I just don't think I'm going to see the number on the scale that I want to tomorrow. :-( as long as its a loss I'm not going to get frustrated...but I would REALLY love to see some 3 or 4 pound weeks instead of 2 or maybe even only 1 this week!
I tried out the gazelle last night and it was freaking me out! I've never used one before and it was definitely cracking me up. It was kindof like my left leg didn't want to do it, but my right one did! So weird! But I did 10 minutes and burned 100 calories! Not as many as the elipticle or the arc trainer but more than the stationary bike, I believe. I'm just excited to have a form of Cardio sitting in my living room! It's a constant reminder of my goals and I like it!
I've included a picture in my blog today...I'm blogging from my phone so I don't know where the picture is going to show up, but it is obviously a chair. But THIS chair, and those like it, have been my mortal enemy for my entire adult life. I have NEVER fit into those things. And I HATE it. Mostly because everybody has them...and most of the time it's the only style of lawn chair people have...so what do I do? Sit on a porch or just stand...and being fat...I'm not a fan of standing for long periods of time! I can't WAIT for the day that I post a picture of me SITTING in one of those chairs! That will be the day! And I am Soooo ready!
Have a good one my friends!
<3 Honor
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