Being sick + working=BOO! It is so hard for me to find the energy to work out when I feel miserable! Even working 9 hours today was difficult and now I'm at the gym with my mom trying to squeeze out every bit of energy I can find to get in a workout. And my favorite machine at this gym is BROKEN! Argh!! The stupid scale is still being evil, ok it's actually by body that's being evil, but anyways...so with that added to being sick, this just hasn't been an easy day. But I'm ok! Because I'm still doing my part in this journey, and I know that my unwavering faith in God and my body is going to pay off. It has to! I just really wish my body wouldn't fight back so HARD!
Through this journey I have really found that my food addiction issues are much worse than I initially thought. I used to say things like, "I don't eat a lot or binge eat, so I don't understand why I'm fat" or "Obesity runs in my family, so I'm just screwed" well that's NOT true!! I'm a compulsive eater with INTENSIVE craving issues! I also haves leaned toward other eating disorders my whole life...somehow staying in that gray area so no one really every noticed. I watch the Biggest Loser a Lot and they are always talking about why they got fat or what caused them to eat...blah, blah, blah. That's the way I've always thought of it. Why make an issue of something that's not anything besides eating to much of the wrong stuff? Well there's ALWAYS more to the story...ok, maybe not always, but almost always. I don't know for sure what all my problem with food is, other than just good old comfort. But I know there's 'more to the story'. I've felt with stuff in my lifetime. Not worse than anyone else, because no ones life is perfect, and I think most of my issues come from within, and the fact that I have a seriously addictive personally paired with O. C. D. That just can't be a good combination! But I will get it all figured out...and when I do, I'll be better for it.
Sleep tight!
<3 Honor
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Day 55:Veggie-tells
I think I may throw my scale away! Ok maybe not that drastic, but as soon as I start thinking I'm making a little lead way and the scale starts going down like it should be, it shoots straight up again. Three pounds! And yesterday I ate 1439 calories worth of healthy food and got in 25 minutes of Cardio after working for 10 hours...so needless to say, that's obviously some sort of strange mess going on inside of my body and it's making me CRAZY!! I would not be as miffed about this if it weren't for the fact that I'm in the competition and these kind of set backs are going to be what causes me to lose. I WAS IN THE LEAD! So that's what has me so upset about it. I KNOW I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING! And I know that the number WILL drop. I just don't have time to wait for my body to agree with me! And I'm still super sore or I would probably be doing jumping jacks at work! Haha.
Ok, I'm done throwing my little fit. It's just irritating. For the first time in my life I'm doing Exactly what it takes to get the weight off and my body is being stupid.
On another note, I have been working really hard with cooking stuff up ahead of time, and pre-packaging things and such and I just keep coming up with new ideas of things I can pre-cook and package away. The thing about it is that it really DOES save time. Now I just need to work on finding some new things that I like so I can add some more variety to my food. I've been doing good on fruits. Vegetables and me, we have a history of issues. I like Broccoli, Carrots, and canned green beans. The only way I can get some variety in the vegetable department is with a salad (but I cannot stand light or fat free ranch) or Stir-Fry. So the plan is to try some veggies that are super good for you that I haven't tried in a while. So...I bought creamed spinach! I'm terrified! Lol. But, it was only a dollar, so if it's gross I'm not going to break the bank. I did find out last year that I like fresh spinach on my sandwich and I love 'florentine' things like pasta Florentine Alfredo that's yummy! So maybe I will like it! I even like cooked spinach on pizza! So we will see. I just can't do peas, and turnip greens, and cabbage (Bleh!!) I wish I could force myself to eat that stuff, but my gag reflex is in really good tune with my brain, so if my taste buds don't like it....I just can't eat it.
I'm also on the lookout for some new main course options. Right now I mostly eat Stir-Fry with chicken, Doc's Chili, Chicken and Rice, or Taco Salad. That's my four dinners. And although I still enjoy eating those, I'm scared I'll get burnt out. I do occasionally make me some healthy mini pizza's on pita bread or a few other things but I always go back to those four meals for two reasons...I like them and they are meals I can pre-make and pre-portion and then warm up and eat later in the week. So I am on the search for some alternative meals that I can do the pre-cooking thing with. It's so important to me because with my work schedule, my workout schedule, and making cakes, I just don't have the time or the energy to spend in the kitchen every night!
Wow, I had a lot to say today! :-) Enjoy your weekend! I'll be at work!
<3 Honor
Ok, I'm done throwing my little fit. It's just irritating. For the first time in my life I'm doing Exactly what it takes to get the weight off and my body is being stupid.
On another note, I have been working really hard with cooking stuff up ahead of time, and pre-packaging things and such and I just keep coming up with new ideas of things I can pre-cook and package away. The thing about it is that it really DOES save time. Now I just need to work on finding some new things that I like so I can add some more variety to my food. I've been doing good on fruits. Vegetables and me, we have a history of issues. I like Broccoli, Carrots, and canned green beans. The only way I can get some variety in the vegetable department is with a salad (but I cannot stand light or fat free ranch) or Stir-Fry. So the plan is to try some veggies that are super good for you that I haven't tried in a while. So...I bought creamed spinach! I'm terrified! Lol. But, it was only a dollar, so if it's gross I'm not going to break the bank. I did find out last year that I like fresh spinach on my sandwich and I love 'florentine' things like pasta Florentine Alfredo that's yummy! So maybe I will like it! I even like cooked spinach on pizza! So we will see. I just can't do peas, and turnip greens, and cabbage (Bleh!!) I wish I could force myself to eat that stuff, but my gag reflex is in really good tune with my brain, so if my taste buds don't like it....I just can't eat it.
I'm also on the lookout for some new main course options. Right now I mostly eat Stir-Fry with chicken, Doc's Chili, Chicken and Rice, or Taco Salad. That's my four dinners. And although I still enjoy eating those, I'm scared I'll get burnt out. I do occasionally make me some healthy mini pizza's on pita bread or a few other things but I always go back to those four meals for two reasons...I like them and they are meals I can pre-make and pre-portion and then warm up and eat later in the week. So I am on the search for some alternative meals that I can do the pre-cooking thing with. It's so important to me because with my work schedule, my workout schedule, and making cakes, I just don't have the time or the energy to spend in the kitchen every night!
Wow, I had a lot to say today! :-) Enjoy your weekend! I'll be at work!
<3 Honor
Friday, January 20, 2012
Day 54: Little Devil On My Shoulder
Because of my little disagreement with the scale last week, I've really buckled down on my eating. Mostly trying make as healthy of decisions as possible and trying to keep my sodium intake down too. What I have learned...is that you an eat a TON of healthy food for 1500 calories! I am seriously stuffed all day long! Actually I've been having issues with eating enough to get my calories in. And I have to be VERY careful with that because I have a sneaky little brain! Whenever I look and see that I have a lot of extra calories left my brain starts going, "oh, we can have that 3 Musketeers bar today, we have plenty of calories" or "let's go ahead and get a buzzard at DQ!" NOOOOOOOOOO! Yea...that's not my brain! That's the devil on my shoulder trying to ruin this for me! So, I flick him off of my shoulder and go home to eat something healthy. That's just the way I roll these days! And the scale is starting to agree with me again! I'm really excited about that!
After my four hour workout the day before yesterday I woke up pretty sore yesterday. So when I went to my regular Ypump and Zumba last night, I really thought that I might be able to work out some of the soreness and start feeling a little better. NOPE! I'm still sore as crazy! I think that's the part that stinks the most about pushing yourself. Because, on one hand, I love the soreness! I know that it means I'm doing something right and my muscles are growing from it! But on the other hand, I don't like pain! Most people don't. And it makes working out quite difficult when you already hurt!
I'm having to overcome quite a few aches and pains during this process. My right knee started bothering me a few months before I started this journey, and then of course I've had the plantar Faciitis in my right foot. Now I have it in my left foot, and am having some issues with the right side of my hip. I hate that...because all of those aches and pains make it easier to give in to my whining body and 'skip' a workout or not do it with as much intensity, and that's just not going to work for me!! I HAVE to get this weight off! And even though I would love to be able to lose a pound every day, my body just isn't about to let me do that! So I'll keep on chugging along and doing my best, and that's something I can be proud of!
Thanks for Reading!!
<3 Honor
After my four hour workout the day before yesterday I woke up pretty sore yesterday. So when I went to my regular Ypump and Zumba last night, I really thought that I might be able to work out some of the soreness and start feeling a little better. NOPE! I'm still sore as crazy! I think that's the part that stinks the most about pushing yourself. Because, on one hand, I love the soreness! I know that it means I'm doing something right and my muscles are growing from it! But on the other hand, I don't like pain! Most people don't. And it makes working out quite difficult when you already hurt!
I'm having to overcome quite a few aches and pains during this process. My right knee started bothering me a few months before I started this journey, and then of course I've had the plantar Faciitis in my right foot. Now I have it in my left foot, and am having some issues with the right side of my hip. I hate that...because all of those aches and pains make it easier to give in to my whining body and 'skip' a workout or not do it with as much intensity, and that's just not going to work for me!! I HAVE to get this weight off! And even though I would love to be able to lose a pound every day, my body just isn't about to let me do that! So I'll keep on chugging along and doing my best, and that's something I can be proud of!
Thanks for Reading!!
<3 Honor
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Day 53:Beware of Sabotage!
Sabotage: a deliberate act of destruction or disruption. Ok, maybe it's not that serious, but close in my eyes!! And the culprit is my husband! What he does, I'm sure is not deliberate...but he is DEFINITELY causing disruption! I am weak. I have an addiction that is insanely hard to overcome...and he goes and puts a pizza in the oven! What?!?! Pizza! That tomatoey, cheesy, meaty goodness that I have been craving! I satiate that craving a little by having alternatives, like a little Lean Cuisine Pizza or something like that. But it's not the same. And I know it's not the same. So that delicious aroma of cooking, greasy heaven is TORTURE!! The LEAST he could do is, when I ask for a bitty tiny piece, tell me NO!! But did he...nope. He gave me a piece. (this all happened a few days ago...I just thought I would share)
I told you that I burned 3300 calories yesterday...I got on the scale and BAM I lost a pound! Woot, woot. Haha I'm so excited! But I must say...even if I didn't work, of it takes THAT much work to lose a pound a day it wouldn't be happening! I was so sore this morning I could barely walk! So I took me some ibruprofen, and that definitely helped ease the soreness a bit.
I have these two long mirrors in my bedroom and I decided to take one and turn it in to my goal mirror. So I wrote down a whole bunch of goals and plan to mark off each and every one!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor
I told you that I burned 3300 calories yesterday...I got on the scale and BAM I lost a pound! Woot, woot. Haha I'm so excited! But I must say...even if I didn't work, of it takes THAT much work to lose a pound a day it wouldn't be happening! I was so sore this morning I could barely walk! So I took me some ibruprofen, and that definitely helped ease the soreness a bit.
I have these two long mirrors in my bedroom and I decided to take one and turn it in to my goal mirror. So I wrote down a whole bunch of goals and plan to mark off each and every one!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Day 52: Wowzers!!!
Today has been a GOOD day:-) I survived 4 hours at the gym! And burnt nearly a pound!! A pound is 3500 calories for those of you that aren't Biggest Loser buffs :) And I burnt 3300!! I almost felt tempted to hop on the elipticle until I burnt the last 200, but I just couldn't do it... I am super proud of myself though!!
The beginning of my workout, Cindy, my trainer, had us walking laps. I'm always terrified of walking because if my plantar fasciitis. But I did it. Two laps at a moderate pace, two laps speed walking, and two laps jogging. Yep I said it. Jogging. ME....jogging!!!! And I did that 6 lap set twice!! And then we walked 5 or 6 more laps... Then she got me on the Arc Trainer for 30 minutes, and then I did two full hours of Zumba. That last 30 minutes I thought I would really be sick. But I pushed through and survived it!!
I'm ending my night with a nice meal at Subway, because I had to many calories left so I'm having me some yummy Sun chips with a turkey sub and I actually got cheese this time (which I NEVER do, because I can swear that you can't taste it with everything else) and even though I've eaten two 200 calorie bags of mixed nuts an eaten really well all day...I still ended up just under 1500 calories! Wow. So now that I'm stuffed...I'm going grocery shopping. Haha...it's the best way to do it!!
Thanks for your support and encouragement!!
<3 Honor
The beginning of my workout, Cindy, my trainer, had us walking laps. I'm always terrified of walking because if my plantar fasciitis. But I did it. Two laps at a moderate pace, two laps speed walking, and two laps jogging. Yep I said it. Jogging. ME....jogging!!!! And I did that 6 lap set twice!! And then we walked 5 or 6 more laps... Then she got me on the Arc Trainer for 30 minutes, and then I did two full hours of Zumba. That last 30 minutes I thought I would really be sick. But I pushed through and survived it!!
I'm ending my night with a nice meal at Subway, because I had to many calories left so I'm having me some yummy Sun chips with a turkey sub and I actually got cheese this time (which I NEVER do, because I can swear that you can't taste it with everything else) and even though I've eaten two 200 calorie bags of mixed nuts an eaten really well all day...I still ended up just under 1500 calories! Wow. So now that I'm stuffed...I'm going grocery shopping. Haha...it's the best way to do it!!
Thanks for your support and encouragement!!
<3 Honor
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Day 51: Weigh-in Number 7
Well, I got the exact result I expected this morning. I hadn't gotten rid of all of the water weight yet. I could tell...my ankles are still tender and my body just aches a bit. So weight-loss for the week is a big fat Zero. But that's ok. I know that I worked out and stayed within my calorie budget and that's what matters. I did not really gain weight. I just have water on me that I'm going to send to the devil! Haha.
I do however have some other news to report. Wonderful news! I mentioned last week that my mom had joined a gym and added me into her membership. I've gone with her twice and plan to go with her twice a week. So she started going a week ago and went three times this past week. We've been talking a lot about Calories and how maybe she was consuming some hidden calories (like oil and butter that she didn't think of) that were keeping her were she is. She has lost some weight already, but still has a ways to go.
Well...she weighed this morning...and lost 3 pounds this week! Yay mom!!! I'm so proud of her. She has struggled with diet and exercise for as long as I can remember and I'm super excited about her staying in track and trying to make a difference.
So now I'm super tired and still have to go work out with her as promised! I burned 1600 calories at the gym today so let's see where we end up!
Thanks for reading
<3 Honor
I do however have some other news to report. Wonderful news! I mentioned last week that my mom had joined a gym and added me into her membership. I've gone with her twice and plan to go with her twice a week. So she started going a week ago and went three times this past week. We've been talking a lot about Calories and how maybe she was consuming some hidden calories (like oil and butter that she didn't think of) that were keeping her were she is. She has lost some weight already, but still has a ways to go.
Well...she weighed this morning...and lost 3 pounds this week! Yay mom!!! I'm so proud of her. She has struggled with diet and exercise for as long as I can remember and I'm super excited about her staying in track and trying to make a difference.
So now I'm super tired and still have to go work out with her as promised! I burned 1600 calories at the gym today so let's see where we end up!
Thanks for reading
<3 Honor
Monday, January 16, 2012
Day 50: Water water water BOO!
The scale was still acting stupid this morning so I took a water pill. I'm thinking maybe that was what was up with my ankles the other day too! I just can't believe it's so MUCH. I know the math, so I know that I'm not REALLY gaining weight because my Basil Metabolic Rate is a little over 2000. That's how many calories I would burn of I just laid in bed all day. So as long as I stay under 2000 there is no way I could actually gain. Plus you factor in that I work 8-9 hours a day as well as doing various other things around the house and workout no less than 5 times per week...I should be losing 3-5 pounds a week. But because I have PCOS, I don't lose at the rate I should. But I should still be Losing! So, I'm going to chalk it up to water weight and quit stressing. The problem with that is that I am uncomfortable and tired with the excess water On my body and that makes me want to be lazy! I went to workout with my mom last night, and I just couldn't get my body to cooperate! I felt drained and exhausted! I hate that feeling! I'm feeling a little better today and am hoping to get a very good burn in at the gym tonight.
I have been getting cake orders out the wazoo the past week or so! In Feb and March I already have 5 cake orders! With me having a full time job, plus putting working out at the top of my priorities AND doing cakes...I am going to be BUSY! I absolutely cannot fathom how parents take care of everything and still find time to spend with their kids! I'm pretty sure that if I ever have a kiddo I am going to have to get rid of all of my animals or they will starve!
I cannot believe it is Day 50 already! The fitness challenge is already almost half way over! And in a little over a week I will be starting the Ironman challenge at the gym. I don't know if I've blogged about it yet, but it will be two weeks long and I will be trying to complete an enormous task. The way I broke it down was evenly divided into the 14 days I would have to walk 2 miles a day, cycle 8.5 miles a day, and do 8 laps in the pool. I think that's right. I'm not doing it to try to win. I'm doing in to try to complete it! I think I can! If not I sure can say I tried! I'm really pretty excited about it and can't wait to get started!
<3 Honor
I have been getting cake orders out the wazoo the past week or so! In Feb and March I already have 5 cake orders! With me having a full time job, plus putting working out at the top of my priorities AND doing cakes...I am going to be BUSY! I absolutely cannot fathom how parents take care of everything and still find time to spend with their kids! I'm pretty sure that if I ever have a kiddo I am going to have to get rid of all of my animals or they will starve!
I cannot believe it is Day 50 already! The fitness challenge is already almost half way over! And in a little over a week I will be starting the Ironman challenge at the gym. I don't know if I've blogged about it yet, but it will be two weeks long and I will be trying to complete an enormous task. The way I broke it down was evenly divided into the 14 days I would have to walk 2 miles a day, cycle 8.5 miles a day, and do 8 laps in the pool. I think that's right. I'm not doing it to try to win. I'm doing in to try to complete it! I think I can! If not I sure can say I tried! I'm really pretty excited about it and can't wait to get started!
<3 Honor
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)