Today marks the end of my tenth week in this journey...it's so crazy for me to wrap my head around! On one hand it seems like it has taken Forever to get to this point, but on the other hand, it seems like it was just yesterday that I sat in a room full of overweight people knowing they were all my competition and sizing them all up!
Last night, after my workout, I had a nice healthy turkey sandwich and some baked Cheetos and I was feeling good! I walk in the front door of my home and my nose is assaulted by the delicious aroma of greasy pizza and chocolate chip cookies!! Are you kidding me!??! I just about had a freakin heart attack! I was instantly ticked off at my husband and decided to take a Melatonin and go to bed before I either killed my husband or ate some food I definitely had no business eating ESPECIALLY the night before a weigh in!!
I had made up my mind...if I had a loss this morning, I was going to treat myself to some All Meat Stuffed Crust pizza, but if I didn't lose anything, I wouldn't be able to splurge because I would have to make up for not losing. So I get on the scale this morning and bam!! Two more pounds!! Woohooo! 297.2...getting farther away from that 300 and it feels great! So that's it! I get pizza for dinner! Out of curiosity I get on My fitness pal and look up the pizza I planned to get....480 Calories PER SLICE! Are you KIDDING me!?? That's pure evil! And I know dang good and well I'm going to eat at least 3-4 pieces because it's been so long since I've had any!! Argh!! 1900 calories? Really!? So I stewed about it for a few hours and in the end I decided that there was no way I spent the last 71 days busting my butt and eating (mostly) healthy to screw up That Bad now. So I got a Veggie Delight pizza and enjoyed a 600 calorie dinner instead of a 2000 calorie one!
In the end, I'm very proud of myself for the way I handled my day. I stayed under 1500 calories AND I burned nearly 1800 today at the gym. :) It has been a very good day for me and I can't WAIT to see what the next few weeks have in store for me!
On Day 1 of my journey my BMI was 56.5. Wow. And today...Day 72, my BMI is 48! So it has dropped 8.5 points! And I've lost 52.7 pounds :-) Yay!!!
Thanks for tuning in ;-)
<3 Honor
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Monday, February 6, 2012
Day 71: Healthy Life NOT Healthy Diet!
I was talking a little to my sister this morning about our Goal weights. I am 5'5" so according to my doctor, a healthy weight for a woman of my bone structure and height is between 130-144. I originally set my goal to 150. But the honest truth is that, after a lifetime of obesity, my body may not let go of all of that weight. He suggested that we, "Wait and see what the future holds for me". That's great...but I need a realistic goal. So I settled on 175. Which would literally be half of the me from Day 1. Wow. But I really believe I can do it!
I am fully aware that the work does not end when the weight comes off. It's going to be a Healthy Life not a Healthy Diet. I have resolved from Day 1 that this is what I will do and I'm going for it!
It's fun to dream about how things will be when I get the excess weight off, but afterward I have to come back to my reality...I'm still morbidly obese. It's really hard for me, when I am feeling so much better and I'm able to do so much more than I've ever been able to do...and I look in the mirror and then it's like BAM!! I'm still fat...dang. Lol...yea I'm being a little silly I know, but hey, that's me. :-) I really don't want to be that person that loses the weight and then looks in the mirror and only sees what 'used to be' instead of the reality. THAT'S why I took before pictures...I'm a photographer...I can't see a lie in a photograph...it's the 'Honest to God' truth. So...I am excited to see the official before and after!!
Today was a really great day! I kept my diet around 1350 calories and I left 2200 calories on the Zumba floor! I'm noticing a pattern. Monday's are the day before my weigh-ins, and I seem to have really good days on Monday's. If only I could mentally make the shift to treat every day like a Monday, I would be in BUSINESS! If my weigh-in goes really well...then Tuesday is always a great day! But if my weigh-in does NOT go well...then it's a not so good day...it's crazy how I know these things...yet when it starts to go bad, I can't seem to stop it. This is the ONE THING that I KNOW I have control over. That's something I have to keep telling myself...because sometimes I get in to the mindset that I can't help it...and that's just a lie. I can. And I do. And there's no excuse for failing.
Thank you for your support :-)
<3 Honor
P. S. Here's the pic at the Y showing I'm an Iron(wo)man :-)) :-)) I hope I get to take it home after they have them up for a while. ;)
I am fully aware that the work does not end when the weight comes off. It's going to be a Healthy Life not a Healthy Diet. I have resolved from Day 1 that this is what I will do and I'm going for it!
It's fun to dream about how things will be when I get the excess weight off, but afterward I have to come back to my reality...I'm still morbidly obese. It's really hard for me, when I am feeling so much better and I'm able to do so much more than I've ever been able to do...and I look in the mirror and then it's like BAM!! I'm still fat...dang. Lol...yea I'm being a little silly I know, but hey, that's me. :-) I really don't want to be that person that loses the weight and then looks in the mirror and only sees what 'used to be' instead of the reality. THAT'S why I took before pictures...I'm a photographer...I can't see a lie in a photograph...it's the 'Honest to God' truth. So...I am excited to see the official before and after!!
Today was a really great day! I kept my diet around 1350 calories and I left 2200 calories on the Zumba floor! I'm noticing a pattern. Monday's are the day before my weigh-ins, and I seem to have really good days on Monday's. If only I could mentally make the shift to treat every day like a Monday, I would be in BUSINESS! If my weigh-in goes really well...then Tuesday is always a great day! But if my weigh-in does NOT go well...then it's a not so good day...it's crazy how I know these things...yet when it starts to go bad, I can't seem to stop it. This is the ONE THING that I KNOW I have control over. That's something I have to keep telling myself...because sometimes I get in to the mindset that I can't help it...and that's just a lie. I can. And I do. And there's no excuse for failing.
Thank you for your support :-)
<3 Honor
P. S. Here's the pic at the Y showing I'm an Iron(wo)man :-)) :-)) I hope I get to take it home after they have them up for a while. ;)
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Day 70: Glad the weekend is over!
Weekends are really hard for me! But for a different reason than most people. Most people are off on the weekends and have a hard time dealing with their days off and making smart decisions...not me! My problem is that I work the MOST on the weekends so I can't find hardly any time or energy to workout! By the time Sunday night rolls around, I'm exhausted, and haven't worked out in TWO days! That's not ok for me! Especially not while I'm in this challenge! I don't have the time to take it easy if I want to win! Grrr...! Lol so now it's nearly 8:00 on Sunday night and I have to go home (eating a Subway sandwich on my way), change into workout clothes and drive 30 minutes to the only gym that's open 24 hours in my area...and I'm already EXHAUSTED!! This is my life...lol...but I have already been rewarded heavily for my diligence so there's not a chance that I'm giving up now!!
I have to say...I have a jealousy problem...let me explain. When I'm in the grocery store, and I see this teeny tiny woman shopping and buying all of the stuff my body thinks it wants...yea I get jealous, because she doesn't have to struggle like I do. Or when I do go out for dinner and there are people who can have whatever they want because they don't gain weight and I can gain 5 pounds just by LOOKING at their dinner...yep, I get jealous. BUT...I have come to realize, that the struggle to get the weight off and KEEP it off, is just going to make me mentally and physically stronger, and although they might be able to eat whatever they want now...a lot of times those people really struggle with their weight later in life and have absolutely no idea how to fix it. At least I'm still fairly young and digging my heals in now...so when I am older, I can enjoy my life and live it to its fullest!!
This week has been a very hard week for me, and it will undoubtably show on the scale. I can't undo any of the decisions I've made this week, I can just choose to not repeat them!
I honestly believe that if I didn't have to work so much, I would be able to do so much better at this! But I just have to work with what I've got...
Thanks for tuning in! Have a great night :-)
<3 Honor
I have to say...I have a jealousy problem...let me explain. When I'm in the grocery store, and I see this teeny tiny woman shopping and buying all of the stuff my body thinks it wants...yea I get jealous, because she doesn't have to struggle like I do. Or when I do go out for dinner and there are people who can have whatever they want because they don't gain weight and I can gain 5 pounds just by LOOKING at their dinner...yep, I get jealous. BUT...I have come to realize, that the struggle to get the weight off and KEEP it off, is just going to make me mentally and physically stronger, and although they might be able to eat whatever they want now...a lot of times those people really struggle with their weight later in life and have absolutely no idea how to fix it. At least I'm still fairly young and digging my heals in now...so when I am older, I can enjoy my life and live it to its fullest!!
This week has been a very hard week for me, and it will undoubtably show on the scale. I can't undo any of the decisions I've made this week, I can just choose to not repeat them!
I honestly believe that if I didn't have to work so much, I would be able to do so much better at this! But I just have to work with what I've got...
Thanks for tuning in! Have a great night :-)
<3 Honor
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Day 69: Ouchie Ankle
I woke up this morning with my ankle bothering me...I'm not quite sure hat is going on with it but I'm pretty sure it's not sprained or anything serious, it's jut tender...and that stinks! I'm indenting if maybe it's complaining from all the walking I did Thursday, because that was a lot more than any other day.
Today has been a good day...I'm training someone at work, so that makes my day go by faster...and I was pretty busy all day so that helps too!
I got to see my Olivia today and she looks great!! Those pounds seem to be MELTING off of that woman. :-) She has already gotten to small for some of her clothes so she brought them to me, she's so sweet! So now I have to grow in to them!
Today has been a long day so I'm going to keep it short. Good night my friends!
<3 Honor
Today has been a good day...I'm training someone at work, so that makes my day go by faster...and I was pretty busy all day so that helps too!
I got to see my Olivia today and she looks great!! Those pounds seem to be MELTING off of that woman. :-) She has already gotten to small for some of her clothes so she brought them to me, she's so sweet! So now I have to grow in to them!
Today has been a long day so I'm going to keep it short. Good night my friends!
<3 Honor
Friday, February 3, 2012
Day 68: Looooong Day
I wonder why it is that whenever you are at work and not much is going on it just seems to drag on and on and ON! That's EXACTLY how my day went today! Friday's and Saturday's are my longest shifts at work, and Friday's have been pretty slow lately so they really drag. So guess what I like to do when I'm bored?? EAT!! Ha! Yep, like I've said before I'm a snacker....so when I'm bored...I want to nibble...and it's not usually something healthy that I have in mind! BAD IDEA! So I survived without snacking...but I did NOT survive the day without being bad :( I got off at 8 and I felt like I was starving and exhausted and missing my hubby, because he worked all night last night. So instead of making a Smart decision and going home and fixing a quick dinner...I called him and said we should go eat Mexican...NOOOOOOO...a good hubby SHOULD have said, "Now babe...do you really think that's going to help you reach your goals?" Or, "I thought you wanted to win that $1000!" But that's NOT what my wonderful hubby said....oh no...he said, "Ok honey, I'll meet you there!" And he was WAY to excited about it!! LOL The last time I talked about him in my blog he picked on me about it..I guess I'll find out if he's still reading....(Love you honey)!
I have been having issues with going to sleep and staying asleep lately...I don't know if it's because of all of the new energy I use with my new lifestyle or what, but it's hard to actually fall asleep, and then I wake up throughout the night...YUCK! I need my beauty rest! I always feel like I need 9-10 hours of sleep before I feel rested even when I don't have trouble sleeping! So a few weeks ago I bought some Melatonin (It's a vitamin that promotes sleep) and I love them! Within a half hour or so I'm ready to conk out and stay that way! And the thing I love is that I don't feel groggy in the morning..woohoo! I just wish I could get to where 6-8 hours of sleep had me feeling well rested in the morning. That would be nice!
Have a good day tomorrow! My Melatonin is kicking in! :)
<3 Honor
I have been having issues with going to sleep and staying asleep lately...I don't know if it's because of all of the new energy I use with my new lifestyle or what, but it's hard to actually fall asleep, and then I wake up throughout the night...YUCK! I need my beauty rest! I always feel like I need 9-10 hours of sleep before I feel rested even when I don't have trouble sleeping! So a few weeks ago I bought some Melatonin (It's a vitamin that promotes sleep) and I love them! Within a half hour or so I'm ready to conk out and stay that way! And the thing I love is that I don't feel groggy in the morning..woohoo! I just wish I could get to where 6-8 hours of sleep had me feeling well rested in the morning. That would be nice!
Have a good day tomorrow! My Melatonin is kicking in! :)
<3 Honor
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Day 67: The D Word & My Soap Box
I feel like I'm going to jinx myself by saying this, but I have to...lol. I really think this is starting to get easier! The food AND the exercise. It's amazing how different I feel. My feet are already starting to be noticeably better. And I'm not quite sure when it happened, but putting on tennis shoes is soooooo much easier!!
I have been utterly overwhelmed by the amount of messages and friend requests I've received on Facebook over the past few days! I love sharing my story and maybe even motivating someone else to start a journey of their own.
I am always so careful not to call my 'eating plan' a 'diet' because that word has always been like a curse word in my vocabulary! It's like this unattainable dream that was never within reach! But the fact of the matter is that the definition of Diet is - the act of restricting your food intake (or your intake of particular foods). Which is EXACTLY what I'm doing. And the reality of my life is that I will most likely always have to be on a 'diet'. I'm not going to lose all of this excess fat and then just go to eating anything and everything I want whenever I want. That's not reality. Reality is that I will always have to restrict my food intake and be especially careful of certain foods. My journey will be on-going as long as I live, but of course, the amount of restriction will change, as I reach a healthier weight. And the same thing goes for you too!
You know, I was watching the Biggest Loser (Season 8) last night, and they were doing this Pop Challenge quiz where they were asked all sorts of health questions. And during this segment I learned that Americans spend $147 BILLION dollars a YEAR on obesity related medical care! Are you kidding me??!!? And it was $90 billion for cancer. And I'm sure you realize that the fight for cancer is HUGE! And insanely expensive for the extremely unfortunate people who have to deal with the Chemo and Radiation and all of the medications and the research and such...and Obesity is 50% MORE than that!!! Wow!! What are we doing to ourselves? Our children? Our families? We are destroying our lives with something that, for most people, is as simple as learning to eat nutritiously with a calorie restricted diet and finding some way to get 30 minutes of Cardio activity a day in (even if it's a walk) and you WILL lose weight! Not as fast as I am, of course, but it will come off! I know that I personally have failed at this for many MANY years...but my eyes are WIDE open now and it's likely to make me crazy!! Lol
And now I will step down off of my soap box... Hehe
So I tried the new wraps that I talked about yesterday, the ones made with Extra Virgin Olive Oil...and I LOVE them! I hate the Taste of many of the healthier bread options, because I always feel like I'm eating cardboard! But these don't have that taste! Yay!! So I definitely enjoyed my lunch today :) I am now headed to the Y to attempt to finish the requirements for the Ironman Competition! I have 6.2 miles of the walk/run left and I am DONE!! I am sooooooo ready to be done too! I am super proud of myself for taking on this challenge and making it happen, but I am also so so ready to go back to my Zumba and Ypump classes and using the Elipticle. Those are my favorites. And with classes I get to see people and visit and that keeps me motivated!
Until tomorrow...
<3 Honor :-)
I have been utterly overwhelmed by the amount of messages and friend requests I've received on Facebook over the past few days! I love sharing my story and maybe even motivating someone else to start a journey of their own.
I am always so careful not to call my 'eating plan' a 'diet' because that word has always been like a curse word in my vocabulary! It's like this unattainable dream that was never within reach! But the fact of the matter is that the definition of Diet is - the act of restricting your food intake (or your intake of particular foods). Which is EXACTLY what I'm doing. And the reality of my life is that I will most likely always have to be on a 'diet'. I'm not going to lose all of this excess fat and then just go to eating anything and everything I want whenever I want. That's not reality. Reality is that I will always have to restrict my food intake and be especially careful of certain foods. My journey will be on-going as long as I live, but of course, the amount of restriction will change, as I reach a healthier weight. And the same thing goes for you too!
You know, I was watching the Biggest Loser (Season 8) last night, and they were doing this Pop Challenge quiz where they were asked all sorts of health questions. And during this segment I learned that Americans spend $147 BILLION dollars a YEAR on obesity related medical care! Are you kidding me??!!? And it was $90 billion for cancer. And I'm sure you realize that the fight for cancer is HUGE! And insanely expensive for the extremely unfortunate people who have to deal with the Chemo and Radiation and all of the medications and the research and such...and Obesity is 50% MORE than that!!! Wow!! What are we doing to ourselves? Our children? Our families? We are destroying our lives with something that, for most people, is as simple as learning to eat nutritiously with a calorie restricted diet and finding some way to get 30 minutes of Cardio activity a day in (even if it's a walk) and you WILL lose weight! Not as fast as I am, of course, but it will come off! I know that I personally have failed at this for many MANY years...but my eyes are WIDE open now and it's likely to make me crazy!! Lol
And now I will step down off of my soap box... Hehe
So I tried the new wraps that I talked about yesterday, the ones made with Extra Virgin Olive Oil...and I LOVE them! I hate the Taste of many of the healthier bread options, because I always feel like I'm eating cardboard! But these don't have that taste! Yay!! So I definitely enjoyed my lunch today :) I am now headed to the Y to attempt to finish the requirements for the Ironman Competition! I have 6.2 miles of the walk/run left and I am DONE!! I am sooooooo ready to be done too! I am super proud of myself for taking on this challenge and making it happen, but I am also so so ready to go back to my Zumba and Ypump classes and using the Elipticle. Those are my favorites. And with classes I get to see people and visit and that keeps me motivated!
Until tomorrow...
<3 Honor :-)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Day 66: Ahhh Pre-portioning
I've said it before and I'm going to say it again...I love pre-portioning! I am currently hooked on turkey wraps for lunch and I can make a whole package of wraps up in half an hour and I'm good to go for the week! My wraps are pretty simple too! I have tried a few different kinds of wraps and I'm currently trying even another kind, this kind is whole wheat and made with extra virgin olive oil 100 calories per wrap. And I put a thin spread over my wrap (combination of fat free sour cream and dried ranch mix) which keeps it from being to dry and then turkey and lettuce and roll that puppy up! I cut my wraps in half and put them in sandwich bags so that when it's time to pack my lunch, I can grab and go! I like to have yogurt and baby carrots with it and sometimes when I'm feeling dangerous I'll add some sum chips or Lays Baked chips. Mmm...lol. I do the same thing for dinners a lot too. I just feel so busy with work, and working out and everything else. So cooking a little on my days off saves me from making poor decisions through my work week. Plus some stuff lasts much longer than just through the week! Like all that stir fry and chicken a cooked up a few weeks ago...I still have a lot of that in the freezer (thank goodness I have a deep freeze!)
I have been on cloud nine all day yesterday and it has bled over on to today! I've been honest about the fact that I have a bit of a weighing addiction, and it seems like the past 3 or 4 weeks, the day after I weigh I always go up 3 or 4 pounds!! How discouraging!! Well...I'm in 2dur land...so this morning I just couldn't help myself...I got on the scale....AND I'M STILL IN 2DUR LAND! Yay! That may not seem like a big deal to most people, but to me...it's MONUMENTAL!! I even had a nice dinner (including desert) last night at the China Buffet! I still didn't go over my 1500 calorie budget though. :) I just ate really lightly all day because I knew I was having dinner with my family and I wanted to be able to include a little dessert.
My hubby took a progress photo for me last night and I did a little side-by-side compared to day 1 (I'll include the pic at the bottom of my blog--not sure how big it will be on here) I was shocked at how different my face looked!! I didn't realize how pudgy it was getting! see progress!
Thanks for reading!!
<3 Honor
I have been on cloud nine all day yesterday and it has bled over on to today! I've been honest about the fact that I have a bit of a weighing addiction, and it seems like the past 3 or 4 weeks, the day after I weigh I always go up 3 or 4 pounds!! How discouraging!! Well...I'm in 2dur land...so this morning I just couldn't help myself...I got on the scale....AND I'M STILL IN 2DUR LAND! Yay! That may not seem like a big deal to most people, but to me...it's MONUMENTAL!! I even had a nice dinner (including desert) last night at the China Buffet! I still didn't go over my 1500 calorie budget though. :) I just ate really lightly all day because I knew I was having dinner with my family and I wanted to be able to include a little dessert.
My hubby took a progress photo for me last night and I did a little side-by-side compared to day 1 (I'll include the pic at the bottom of my blog--not sure how big it will be on here) I was shocked at how different my face looked!! I didn't realize how pudgy it was getting! see progress!
Thanks for reading!!
<3 Honor
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