October 10th, 2017: Feel the Burn! (But not so much)

In the words of DJ Tanner, "Oh Mylanta!"I.am.exhausted!! I don't even know how I did it, but I made it to 10k steps today! 4 days in a ROW! I want to do it tomorrow too, so that way I have 2 full, blessed days of no cares!! Lol. I actually have a LOT to do on Thursday and Friday and do not want to be worrying about steps and be too exhausted to get my stuff done. So One MORE Day...that's it. I can DO THIS! 

Today was insane! I was dancing around and making up reasons to move as much as possible, trying to get my steps in. By the time I got home from a crazy busy day at work, I made this amazing Keto Pizza using a crust recipe called "Fat Head Pizza Crust"...oh yea...that hit the SPOT! I was totally in Pizza loving heaven! The recipe made 3 mini pizza's, so I'm hoping they will be as tasty when they are warmed up. That would be AWESOME because that would mean I have two more dinners DONE. Lol. Dinner always takes the most time because I like to get my variety in for that meal. I eat a lot of uncured Black Forest Ham(cuz zero carbs, duh) and cheese and eggs and nuts during the day. So dinner is when I go all out. Tonight was PERFECT. 

After dinner, we (Jamie and I) went for a walk. We took our protector, Duke with us. Haha...he's such a scary cat though. He wouldn't protect a fly. But the sheer mass of him is intimidating to strangers, so it's kind of fun to take him along. :)

The walk was wonderful, weather wise! It was breezy and cooler than it's been in a few weeks and I was in heaven! But oh, my feet. They hurt sooooo bad. I can definitely feel the improvement starting to happen though. The pain doesn't last as long now. The burning also isn't as intense. I'm sitting here writing this blog with almost no pain. So that makes me so dang happy, I can hardly stand it! I have also noticed that putting on my shoes is a little easier too! Those non-scale victories are exactly what I need, because, sadly, the scale hasn't budged at ALL yet this week. I wasn't expecting a whole lot because it's that special week women love so much, but dog-on it! I want to see SOMETHING for all of this hard work! If my body makes it up to me in doubles next week, she shall be forgiven. LOL

This chica is headed to bed y'all! Have a great night!

Xoxo...Honor

October 9th, 2017: Would Ya Look at That?!

May I have your attention please!?!?!? Who has ankles?! Well this girl does!!! And I'm super excited about it!!

I know I missed yesterday, I totally spaced out and didn't think about it until this morning. It's been a crazy few days trying to get all of these dang steps in. And today was even crazier!! I had to juggle a sit down job with trying to get way more steps than my body is ready for yet. It was VERY difficult. I did manage to spread it out mostly thought the day. But I ended up needing 3,000 more after dinner, so I sweet talked my sister into going for a walk with me. We got out to walk and it started raining! I was like...uh...hello mother nature?! What the crap man!?

But we persevered and we walked until I hit 10k steps and she was SUPER close. 🙂🙂

Now I'm at at home soaking my poor baby feet!

Goodnight y'all!

Xoxo...Honor

October 7th, 2017: Weigh-in Day

Oh em gee what a DAY! I did my my weigh-in for my weightloss challenge today and then I got BUSY! I had a 10,000 step goal to make and didn't have any time to waste. I knew I was going to have to split it up throughout the day or I'd never get there. So I got busy doing some chores around the house and keeping busy, and then I headed over to my bestie's house for a little afternoon of shenanigans. Her and her girls went with me to take care of my boss' cattery and then we went and got pedicures. We had so much fun! We were giving those people so much crap and cracking them up. It was just what I needed! Afterward we hit up a few stores and got some more groceries that I needed.

I seriously ate 1 plate of food, pumpkin seeds and some shrimp scampi. That's it. All day. And the BEST part about that was that I was not hungry at all today! It blows my mind. Like....I don't even know how to deal with my life. Lol. I did have a little bit of a hard time when I had to take them to get their dinner. They chose Long John Silvers and I looooove their cheese curds and battered shrimp. Those smells were making me a little crazy! So when we went to get groceries, I grabbed up some shrimp and went home and made scampi. Perfect. Yum! Who needs all that batter?! Not this girl...I'm on a mission! Lol

Ok enough jibber-jabber, let me give you what you really came for....weigh in results. When I started 2 weeks ago, my initial weigh-in was 385.4. And today I weighed in at 367.8 that's an 8 pound loss this past week and 17.6 total. Whew...I'm proud of that. I'm hoping for this week to be really good too since I'll be doing all of these extra steps, but we shall see.

Y'all I am exhausted and headed to bed! Thanks for tuning in. :)

Xoxo...Honor

October 6th, 2017: No Excuses

Well today was a busy, busy day! I knew I had a small workout to look forward to, because the Challenge for the weightloss thing I'm in, was to burn 600 extra calories this week. 600 is kindof easy when you are almost 400 Pounds, just saying. I did that Denise Austin video for 18 minutes the other night and burned 300 calories. Then I'm looking through other people's entries and they are like...jogged 2 miles, 147 calories. Lol. Shoot, if that were me, jogged 2 miles, 1,000 calories!! So I needed 300 more calories burned by the end of the day. On my lunch...I go into the bathroom, turn some jammed out music on my headset, and I go to town! Throwing my arms all over the place and moving that big booty! Denise Austin told me the more muscles I engage the more calories I will burn! Well ok Denise! I'm moving my muscles!! LOL 18 minutes later and my second 300 calories were smashed out. Oh yea.

So I went a little stupid when they posted the challenge for next week. It was like a shot in the gut! They want 10k steps per day FIVE days this week. I do AMAZINGLY well to get 6k on a work day. So I'm like...well....I'm either gonna fail or die trying. I seriously don't even know if I'm physically able to do it, but I'm gonna be dancing my butt off, because I get more steps that way without feeling like I'm dying. Turn on the music and dance before work...dance in AT work, on my lunch...after work...maybe I'll be a dancing FOOL by the end of the week! Lol

Well it's late and I have been busy all day and then visited with my sis all night and I'm EXHAUSTED and have 10,000 steps to get tomorrow! LOL

Pray for me y'all! Tomorrow is also weigh in day with the challenge, so you know I'm gonna share with you all. :)

Xoxo...Honor

October 5th, 2017: Keto Rage

Apparently there's this thing called Keto rage. I thought I was just being extra cranky on Monday and then my sister informed me that it's a real thing. And boy do I have it! Lol. Think...PMS X's 100...this is serious folks. I seriously have never felt so moody in my whole life! I think the guys at work are ducking and covering when they see me now! Haha

The crazy thing about it, is that when I think about it...I'm super happy! Every morning I get on the scale and watch it drop a little more every day. THAT is good news folks! And I LOVE seeing daily results! Instant Gratification is my jam! I know that it won't keep going down so quickly, but I also know that I've worked out 20 minutes this whole week and I'm still seeing amazing results....sooooo...when I get to where the loss slows a little, it will speed back up because I'll be working out too! Tadaa!! Magic! Haha

They say that 70% of weightloss is in your diet and the other 30% is in your workout. I've been doing it the other way around in previous attempts. Now, my primary focus is a good, filling diet every day. Yesterday I did so good I wasn't even hungry for supper! Ha! That NEVER happens! I am a nighttime eater for sure! I usually snack, and have a milkshake and graze all night. Not anymore. I feel soooo much fuller on this Keto diet and I love it. I still have to fight my brain, because I'm so used to snacking that it's almost like a habit. Like...I'm bored....let's have a snack! Haha, no-no bad-bad!

Ok I'm doing a lot of whining today so maybe I should hush it. Lol. So I did a workout last night...on my TV, because I was feeling to lazy to go to the gym. Haha..But at least I did something! I LOVE having YouTube on my TV, and I love Denise Austin...I don't know why, but her videos just make me happy! She was on the Rachel Ray Show the other day and I was omg two of my favorite women in one place!! Haha. So I typed her in and did 18 whole minutes of a 30 minutes Cardio Blast Routine. And then I died. Ok..maybe not, but my heart was beating super fast and I burned 300 calories in that little 18 minutes! I'll take it!! I was feeling super proud of myself afterward and I went to make what I had planned for dinner, which was Chicken Alfredo Zoodles and I realized...nope...not hungry! But ya gotta eat dinner! I try to make sure I get at least 1200 calories a day, maybe I shouldn't worry so much about it, but I didn't want to wake up hungry and I REFUSE to eat in the middle of the night! So I just made up a little chicken and threw some Pesto on it, cuz I love it. And steamed some brocolli and bam, your dinner is complete! :)

Xoxo..Honor

October 4th, 2017

Ok so I love researching things that interest me. And of course, right now....that's Keto everything. I have my own personal consultant with my sister, because she has been doing Keto since the end of May and did it some last year too. But I also want to learn things on my own and form my own opinions about things. I didn't do a whole lot of research before I started, because I just had myself 100% convinced that there was no way I could do the Keto diet and be successful.

I was so wrong. #1: You can lose weight with a good Keto diet, without even exercising. That's my love language right there! You have to workout to tone and to just be healthy in general. But at the weight I'm at and in the shape I'm in...working out is super stressful because my body can't tolerate it very well. Mostly my feet. They BURN like crazy when I do anything that requires walking a lot. Even going to the Mall or shopping for part of the day has me in severe pain. So I needed a new plan. I couldn't do everything the same as before. Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing the things and being more active...just not like I have in the past. And guess what? The scale just keeps on going down! Uh yea baby!!

I'm soooo ready to be able to do more and be more active. I HATE how lazy I've become. Even at home with just daily living is a struggle. So I am focusing on keeping my diet on point and not stressing a whole lot about physical activity right this minute. They say the 1st 2 weeks of the Keto diet make you extra drained anyways because you are changing the way your body burns fat, so I'm still within that time frame. Hopefully soon, I'll start having more energy and be able to get moving.

I tried something new today! I ordered this Cocnut Oil called MCT oil. You can just add it to your morning coffee and it is supposed to be amazing for you. It helps you reduce your stored body fat, feel fuller, have more energy, think more clearly, better digestion, balance your hormones (oh heck yes), improve your mode & fight infections and viruses!! Who would EVER pass up those benefits?? Not me, no way..I need some of ALL of that. So I put it in my coffee this morning. 1 tablespoon...not that much...except, it didn't blend in and I was feeling like I was drinking oil all morning. Haha...not a fan of that! But the taste was pretty nonexistent.  So I'm gonna try blending it in my blender tomorrow and see if that helps.

These last few days have been difficult for me. My obesity has pretty much always been about my brain. Yes, I have PCOS, and yes, I have an entire family that has obesity issues. But I'm the biggest. It's always been my sister and I at the top of the fat pyramid of our family. Why? I don't know. But I do know that she struggles with a binging disorder. I have one too, but not to the extent of hers. I just REALLY like to eat junk. Candy and chips etc. I could live on it. I know that lots of other people can eat the same way I enjoy and aren't nearly as obese as I am and that messes with my head. It makes me feel out of control and like, no matter what I do, I'm predestined to be obese my entire life.

I don't know why some people can never exercise a day in their life and eat whatever they like and remain thin or barely overweight. It's not fair. But at the end of the day...my life, my struggles, my wieght, is NOT ABOUT THEM. I compare myself to EVERYONE around me to the point of spiraling out of control. I probably should be seeing a counselor. But I have faith, that if I keep my head on straight and maintain a great support system, which I have (thanks to all of you beauties who help me and my fam too!) then I can DO this. I can be a Success story!

I was so freakin inspired last night. I was strolling through Instagram, looking at all these people who have lost MASSIVE amounts of wieght and I came across this girl who just jumped out at me. I don't know her history, how long she's been obese or how she got that way, but I know that at the age of 26 she weighed around 480 pounds or so. In ONE YEAR she lost 259 pounds!! One freaking year. I want to do that! That is amazing! I can't lose 269, but 200 would be exactly what I want.

Ok, I'm done dreaming now. Haha. I haven't set any real goals yet, because I don't like letting myself down. Non-Scale Victories are where it's at with me. I know it's healthy to have goals, and I will set some. But right now my goal is: Lose Weight. That's all. Haha.

What are your goals weight-loss or non-scale? I'd love to hear them!

One of my long-term Non-Scale Goals is to be able to take a bath and have the water flowing on both sides of me without having to be in a Jacuzzi to make it happen. Lol It's important!

Xoxo...Honor

October 3, 2017: 3rd Time's A Charm Right?!

Well...I'm back. I'm embarrassed. I've gone back and forth on whether or not I was going to revive the old blog a third time, and I keep trying to talk myself out of it, but at the end of the day....I just enjoy it. One main reason being that it helps me stay on track. It also helps me to have somewhere to pour out my heart and not drive those around me insane with weight-loss & food talk.

Part of what was holding me back is that I've already failed at this 2 times. What makes this time any different? I've already gotten some heat from people about it. What is the point if you are going to lose 70 pounds or so, and then just gain it all back? Well...it's a learning process for sure. One thing I have GOT to learn, is how to go in to maintenance mode! I should have done that last year when we bought our house. Big changes happened all at once and all of the sudden I wasn't able to concentrate all of my attention on my weight-loss journey, and before I knew it, I started gaining again. I can lose, or I can gain. I can't seem to find that sweet spot where I can just hang out for a while doing neither and regroup.

So what got me going again? A few things actually. I restarted on Saturday, September 23rd. So 10 days ago. I've been trying to motivate myself to restart since my sister did at the end of May and I kept making excuse after excuse. Let me just buy one more bag of my favorite chips or let me just eat one more time at this place and that place...well you know where that leads ya....straight down the path of destruction.

I have a new plan of attack this time around. I have shared through my blog before, that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrom. For those who don't know, in a nutshell, it causes it's victims to be able to gain weight much easier, have more trouble losing weight, have abnormal hair gain and loss (fun times), have insulin resistance that leads to diabetes, as well as my least favorite...infertility. So my new plan of attack is something I've never tried before. I've gone Keto...lol. If you don't know what that means, you should totally research it. It pretty much means really low carb with a high fat combo. It is one of the most successful weighs someone with PCOS can lose weight, and even after weigh-loss, a low card diet is recommended to maintain weight-loss and a healthy life. I have NEVER lived a low-carb life. Breads and Pastas are my JAM!! I seriously didn't even know if I had it in me. I started last Saturday because I found out about a Weight-loss competition on Facebook that had a $750 pot for the 1st place winner as well as some other prizes. I've been looking for something like this to get me going again, because my competitive nature comes out and helps push me even harder toward my goals!

My starting weight this go around was 385.6, only 0.4 away from my all-time highest weight. I hate that I let that happen. It sure does make me kick myself. I did my measurements (which I'm going to log at the bottom for my own reference later since I lost mine last time and the info in my blog is all I have now (changing phones stinks! I lost all of my notes!). Anyways, my hips are bigger than EVER...I knew it too. I actually feel bigger than ever. I can't wait to get some of this off so that I'm not so miserable.

So I'm 10 days in. I haven't been able to do anywhere near as much exercising as I have been in the past. I walked 5 miles last week (part of the challenge) and ended up with blisters on both of my feet. My feet are REALLY holding me back at the moment. Every time I exercise I have insane burning that lasts for several hours. I will work through it. It will just take time and persistence.

I've got this! I can do this. I just have to quit quitting. Haha.

**I've decided not to post any of my food stuff on here this time; primarily because it was insanely time-consuming. I log all of my food choices through MyFitnessPal so you are welcome to join me there. :)



Starting Measurements: on 9/29/17

Neck - 15
Hips - 70
Waist - 55
Right Arm - 23
Left Arm - 24
Right Thigh - 45
Left Thigh - 43.5
Calves: R-20 L-21
Bust - 52

BMI 60.5
BMR 2437

Xoxo...Honor