This morning was probably the most anticipated weigh-in since the first one. I've been off of the scale more this week, because all of the water bouncing up and down stuff makes me a little crazy. Last week I weighed 300.8, which left me barely missing a couple of my goals! To lose 50 pounds and to be under 300, which just so happen to only be a pound apart! So I get on the scale and....***drum roll please*** beep, beep, beep, beep etc. (hehe that's for you Olivia) beep, beep 299.2!! **Oh yea, it's my birthday, not really, but we're gonna party like its my birthday...** ok enough of my victory song (and dance--you just couldn't see that part, it was pretty silly looking anyways!)!! I am in 2Dur land!! Lol, it doesn't quite have the same ring as 1Dur land, but to my ears it sounded great!!
I texted Cindy, my personal trainer provided by the Y for the Fitness Challenge, and she had to call cuz she was so excited for me!! I love that woman! She's in her late 50's or 60's (I honestly don't remember), but she has the strength and determination of a 20 year old! She is absolutely precious to me, and I haven't even seen her in well over a week because she's been sick:( She may not be able to train with me more than once a week, but she is also the instructor of the Ypump class I go to, and she texts me through the week to see how things are going. She's training three of us for the Challenge and says that I'm the one she worries about the least. I LOVE THAT! I love that my determination is so visible to her! And she's like my own personal little cheerleader. :)
So, I am 1/3 of the way to 1dur Land and I'm stoked!! I know I can do it!! And the never failing support of family and friends makes the journey do much MORE to me! I spoke with a woman last night who has victoriously overcome obesity, but not in the same euphoric state that I have been able to work in. She had her own daughter hindering her progress, and I'm sure other people deal with similar issues and I am SO THANKFUL for each and every one of you who support me day in and day out! I write this blog for me. And to be accountable to me. And to help anyone who might learn anything at all from my journey... I now know of TWO FRIENDS that have decided to choose change, and I think they are wonderful, beautiful women now, I can't imagine what this journey to a lifelong transformation will do to them! Olivia and Vickie, I literally have tears in my eyes right now thinking of how my soul baring honesty in this blog has touched both of them in their own unique way and encouraged and inspired them to choose a path that leads to a happier, healthier quality of life. I sincerely wish you both tremendous success!! Olivia is well on her way already having lost more than twenty pounds!! And I know Vickie is well on her way too!! I would love to hear of anyone else who had decided to make a change! I track my daily caloric intake using www.myfitnesspal.com and I would be happy to receive a friend request from you (username is honorwarren) and if you're not already my friend on Facebook please add me! You can use my e-mail to find me at honorwarren@yahoo.com, and be sure to add a personal message telling me that you've read my blog that way I know who you are :-)
I can't believe how far this journey has already brought me in such a short amount of time!! And I can't wait to see what I learn while losing the NEXT 50 pounds!!
Thanks for coming on my journey with me :-)
<3 Honor
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
Day 64: Hand-to-Mouth Disease and Overeating
Today has been a fast day so far...I've been at work. I love it when my work day speeds by! That just makes me a happy girl. But even though it's already after 5, I have quite a bit of things left to do on my 'To Do List' for the day. Most important of all, I have to work out! The first week of the Ironman Challenge is over and we are headed into the second week. In Week one I completed 70 of the 85 required swimming laps, 10 of the required 26.2 walking/running laps, and 54 of the 112 cycling miles. If I do as well this week, I really think I'll finish! The cycling has been hard on my tooshy, which I've already shared, but I think the walking is the hardest physically. My feet are so jacked up! And I sincerely pray that, as the weight comes off, I find relief with my feet. I love the idea of being a runner and completing 5k's or maybe even a 10k or more! But with my feet the way they are now...that will most likely never happen. The crazy thing about this Ironman thing is that I honestly feel like I'm slacking on my workouts! I know that it's really mostly because Zumba burns a TON of calories and walking and spinning don't. But I feel like I'm actually pushing my body HARDER with less results! And that just stinks! So yea, I'm ready to be done with this and get back to my way of things. :)
My eating choices are what I believe got me to 350 pounds. I don't Quite understand it because I wasn't lazy and I have NEVER been a binge eater. It's like I just naturally had a low metabolism from the get go and that just did me in. I am 100% aware that I was never a healthy eater. In the other hand, on an average day I also didn't consume 5000 calories. And I haven't been sedentary my whole life. So finding the real answer as to why I became obese in the first place, may never be a real reality for me. However, I do know that I have eaten a whole lot of garbage in my lifetime. I love pizza and burritos and almost anything sweet along with a ton of other things that are made out of junk. But I never stopped at the drive thru and had a burger on my way home to dinner, I never ate a whole large pizza by myself None of those sad stories you hear apply to me. The truth of the matter is that most likely one of the only reasons I'm overweight as an adult is because I am addicted to sweet and salty processed food. But it's not just that, I can sit and over eat on almonds or Sun chips or something that's 'healthy' that I enjoy too. It doesn't matter if it's healthy, you still can't over eat! But I want to. I'm a muncher. I like to 'snack'. It got worse after I quit smoking almost two year ago. I was used to my 'hand to mouth' being busy with a cigarette. So long after the cravings for nicotine faded away, I still had this Issue with feeling like something was missing. I still had hand-to-mouth disease!
Pre-portioned snacks and meals are key for me. Otherwise, I will over eat, long after my body signals that it's not hungry anymore. Even as I sat here writing this blog entry I was eating Almonds out of a bag, instead of taking the time out to pre count them, and I probably ate two servings! That's how bad I am! But at least it was almonds and not something else!! Haha
Thanks for keeping up with me :) The messages I get humble me. I can't believe that silly old Honor could ever inspire someone. I feel like I still have so much growth to do mentally and so much shrinking to do physically ;) but I'll get there! Day 64 is soon to be history and Day 65 is on its way!
My eating choices are what I believe got me to 350 pounds. I don't Quite understand it because I wasn't lazy and I have NEVER been a binge eater. It's like I just naturally had a low metabolism from the get go and that just did me in. I am 100% aware that I was never a healthy eater. In the other hand, on an average day I also didn't consume 5000 calories. And I haven't been sedentary my whole life. So finding the real answer as to why I became obese in the first place, may never be a real reality for me. However, I do know that I have eaten a whole lot of garbage in my lifetime. I love pizza and burritos and almost anything sweet along with a ton of other things that are made out of junk. But I never stopped at the drive thru and had a burger on my way home to dinner, I never ate a whole large pizza by myself None of those sad stories you hear apply to me. The truth of the matter is that most likely one of the only reasons I'm overweight as an adult is because I am addicted to sweet and salty processed food. But it's not just that, I can sit and over eat on almonds or Sun chips or something that's 'healthy' that I enjoy too. It doesn't matter if it's healthy, you still can't over eat! But I want to. I'm a muncher. I like to 'snack'. It got worse after I quit smoking almost two year ago. I was used to my 'hand to mouth' being busy with a cigarette. So long after the cravings for nicotine faded away, I still had this Issue with feeling like something was missing. I still had hand-to-mouth disease!
Pre-portioned snacks and meals are key for me. Otherwise, I will over eat, long after my body signals that it's not hungry anymore. Even as I sat here writing this blog entry I was eating Almonds out of a bag, instead of taking the time out to pre count them, and I probably ate two servings! That's how bad I am! But at least it was almonds and not something else!! Haha
Thanks for keeping up with me :) The messages I get humble me. I can't believe that silly old Honor could ever inspire someone. I feel like I still have so much growth to do mentally and so much shrinking to do physically ;) but I'll get there! Day 64 is soon to be history and Day 65 is on its way!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Day 63: The Look
Do you wanna know something that really bothers me? Well I'm going to tell ya! I absolutely hate when people give me the look (you know, scan me from head to toe) and then make that Face...that one that says to me that they think I'm disgusting, or how did I let myself get that way, or whatever. I hear those comments in my head, because I've heard them verbalized before. And they sting as bad as a jagged knife to me. I am fully aware that not all people think that when they look at me, but I am also aware that some people just can't help themselves. You know, I have a little bit of an issue with 'The Look' myself, whenever I see someone who can't walk in the grocery store because they are so obese that their body just can't handle it. And any time I find myself falling into that judgmental cycle I give myself a swift mental kick! How dare me?! The one thing that hurts me the most and without much thought at all, I can turn around and do EXACTLY the same thing! So I definitely can't hold it against someone else for doing the same thing. We are HUMAN. But it still hurts! And it's so crazy to me that I have accomplished so much in such a short amount of time. I mean really? 49 pounds in 8 weeks is something very few people can do. But I did it! Me! I'm not special...I didn't do any kind of miracle cure-all or follow some kind of special diet...no, I've used my own wisdom and knowledge that I have gained about weight-loss, the success of others around me, & SHEER DETERMINATION. But the fact that remains is the part that is the hardest. And the part that makes my every day life a challenge and that is the fact that I'm still Morbidly Obese. And I still hate that phrase more than ever. 49 pounds is great. A hundred will be better...and 175-200 pounds lost and I won't be complaining...but I still have a long road ahead of me. But it's a road that is becoming more and more familiar. After 63 days, I'm getting to know this new road, and although it may be far from easy, and most days My first thought might be to take a detour! But this is my journey, and it's up to me to decide how the trip will go. And I just plan to make it as smooth as possible. :) It IS possible. 49 pounds ago I believed it was possible, and at this point I think I've proved that! I just have to continue improving. And hopefully, someday, instead of looking in the mirror and wondering what I'm supposed to look like, I'll look in the mirror and see who I am.
I spend a lot of time saying that I'm working on eating healthy and exercising, but the truth is that I DO eat healthy and exercise. That's just me now. It's been more than two months and that is what my life consists of...
After this healthy living challenge I won't spend as much time in the gym. That does not mean, by any means, that I will quit working out or living my life the way I have been. That just means that I have a TON of things that I have let go in my home over the past few months that are going to HAVE to get done. Spring cleaning could be the term I use. :) but that stuff is going to wait until mid-March when hopefully, HOPEFULLY, I will report that the sacrifices were all worth it and I had won the challenge. That's the plan. We shall see if that is the outcome. But the fact of it all is that I want to be able to say that even if I don't win the challenge, I gave 100% towards doing my best! And that's really all that matters.
Thanks for tuning in today! Have a great Sunday and an even better week this week!
<3 Honor
I spend a lot of time saying that I'm working on eating healthy and exercising, but the truth is that I DO eat healthy and exercise. That's just me now. It's been more than two months and that is what my life consists of...
After this healthy living challenge I won't spend as much time in the gym. That does not mean, by any means, that I will quit working out or living my life the way I have been. That just means that I have a TON of things that I have let go in my home over the past few months that are going to HAVE to get done. Spring cleaning could be the term I use. :) but that stuff is going to wait until mid-March when hopefully, HOPEFULLY, I will report that the sacrifices were all worth it and I had won the challenge. That's the plan. We shall see if that is the outcome. But the fact of it all is that I want to be able to say that even if I don't win the challenge, I gave 100% towards doing my best! And that's really all that matters.
Thanks for tuning in today! Have a great Sunday and an even better week this week!
<3 Honor
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Day 62: More Salt Please!
I realized that yesterday I said that I started with eating under 1500 calories and working out as often as I could, but I never followed up with the changes I've made along the way. In the beginning, I wasn't really concerned at all about what I ate. I was more concerned with eating under 1500 calories a day and not eating out anywhere except for Subway. I have a big problem with eating out. And I like to eat stuff that is terrible for you. So I stayed away for the first few weeks completely and now I try to only eat out once a week.
So that philosophy worked really well for me for the first few weeks. And then my weightloss slowed down DRAMATICALLY. So I had made a deal with myself, that I would continue doing what worked, until it didn't...and then I'd make the necessary changes. I slowly started eating healthier foods and at this point I'm having to eat pretty stinking healthy most of the time to see continued results. And I MUST see results. It is imperative to my success. Even if it's only a part of a pound. I know that your body fluctuates and that's ok, but if a few days go by with nothing...then I go into freak out mode until I see a difference. I want you to know, that on occasion, I still eat garbage. (That's what I call processed unhealthy food) but I have to be EXTREMELY careful! Because that stuff that I used to eat daily without really much thought at all...those foods taste even BETTER now that I rarely eat them. My two things that I give in on occasionally are Cooler Ranch Doritos, and Three Musketeers Bars. A big bag of the Doritos is 300 cal and it's somewhere around that for the candy bar too. So I can work it in to my calories and not kill my calorie intake for the day.
Something that is really hurting me right now is Sodium. I've had to really cut back because my body is using it to retain water and it has been UGLY the past few weeks! But hopefully I've survived that for now. And let me tell ya...I love salt! I love foods that are salty and I like to add to much salt to things. I actually bought some 1/2 salt that has half the sodium (hence the name) to help me cut back, but I think I use twice as much of that stuff! But I am doing a really good job at cutting back in the sodium most of the time. Today...not so much!
Have a good night!!
<3 Honor
So that philosophy worked really well for me for the first few weeks. And then my weightloss slowed down DRAMATICALLY. So I had made a deal with myself, that I would continue doing what worked, until it didn't...and then I'd make the necessary changes. I slowly started eating healthier foods and at this point I'm having to eat pretty stinking healthy most of the time to see continued results. And I MUST see results. It is imperative to my success. Even if it's only a part of a pound. I know that your body fluctuates and that's ok, but if a few days go by with nothing...then I go into freak out mode until I see a difference. I want you to know, that on occasion, I still eat garbage. (That's what I call processed unhealthy food) but I have to be EXTREMELY careful! Because that stuff that I used to eat daily without really much thought at all...those foods taste even BETTER now that I rarely eat them. My two things that I give in on occasionally are Cooler Ranch Doritos, and Three Musketeers Bars. A big bag of the Doritos is 300 cal and it's somewhere around that for the candy bar too. So I can work it in to my calories and not kill my calorie intake for the day.
Something that is really hurting me right now is Sodium. I've had to really cut back because my body is using it to retain water and it has been UGLY the past few weeks! But hopefully I've survived that for now. And let me tell ya...I love salt! I love foods that are salty and I like to add to much salt to things. I actually bought some 1/2 salt that has half the sodium (hence the name) to help me cut back, but I think I use twice as much of that stuff! But I am doing a really good job at cutting back in the sodium most of the time. Today...not so much!
Have a good night!!
<3 Honor
Friday, January 27, 2012
Day 61: Honor Speechless...oh yea!
I was speechless this morning...which is very VERY seldom. When I wake up in the mornings, out of habit, I always check my phone. It's my link to the world, and I'm nosey. So I wanted to see what was going on. When I pulled up my Facebook notifications there it is. Sean Anderson (my main source of inspiration) tagged you in a post. What? He talked about me? Ooooh what did he say!! So, with excitement I clicked the link. He was congratulating me on making it to my 60 day mark!! Wow. He is very likely the busiest person I know, and he not only noticed that it was my 60th day, but he took time to congratulate me AND post a link to MY blog on his wall!! Yea...I'm start struck. :) he's an AMAZING author with an awesome story and he is keeping up with my journey! TALK ABOUT PRESSURE!! Haha!! I'm just kidding...but I do love it! It's just tht much more motivation that I can pull from on a down day or when that stupid scale and I are in a fight.
So, I gladly welcome my new readers. I hope you'll take some time to skim through my journey up to this point. I am, by no means, as phenomenal a writer as Sean. But I put my heart and soul out here for my blog to primarily keep myself accountable, but also to help anyone who can identify with my journey or learn anything from it.
As some of you know, I'm in a fitness challenge at my local YMCA that still has six and a half weeks left. I'm trying very hard to WIN! That's the plan. I started out with just eating under 1500 calories a day and working out as much as I thought I could handle and still be able to make it through my day. I work full-time as a photographer and then make cakes and do photography on the side. So I'm a pretty busy Chica. I Kind of feel like I'm proving that even if you do have a very busy lifestyle, you can still make time to take care of yourself along with the rest of your responsibilities. It is, by far, not easy. And I actually take quite a bit of grief from some of my friends and family from not having time to go visit with them or hang out. But, the truth is, this is probably the most important thing in my life right now. And if I don't get my obesity under control now...well things could get really stinkin ugly. I've been extremely blessed so far, to have not had to deal with a lot of obesity related health concerns. So I am not trying to take that for granted any more!
The Ironman Challenge may kill me, or at least my poor sore toosh from all the spinning. But I know if I complete this, I will FEEL like an Ironman. :) so far, today is the 5th day f the Ironman Challenge and in that length of time I have walked/jogged 10 out of the 26.3 required, biked 38 out of the 112 required, and swam 60 laps out of the 85 required! And I have 9 days left. The bike/spinning is the hardest because I am sooooo not used to those tiny seats!! And it's hurting me pretty bad! But I'm fully confident in the rest of it. The walking/jogging is a challenge because of the Plantar Faciitis I have in both feet, but it has actually not been as bad as I thought it would be!!
Thanks for reading and thanks for your support!!
<3 Honor
So, I gladly welcome my new readers. I hope you'll take some time to skim through my journey up to this point. I am, by no means, as phenomenal a writer as Sean. But I put my heart and soul out here for my blog to primarily keep myself accountable, but also to help anyone who can identify with my journey or learn anything from it.
As some of you know, I'm in a fitness challenge at my local YMCA that still has six and a half weeks left. I'm trying very hard to WIN! That's the plan. I started out with just eating under 1500 calories a day and working out as much as I thought I could handle and still be able to make it through my day. I work full-time as a photographer and then make cakes and do photography on the side. So I'm a pretty busy Chica. I Kind of feel like I'm proving that even if you do have a very busy lifestyle, you can still make time to take care of yourself along with the rest of your responsibilities. It is, by far, not easy. And I actually take quite a bit of grief from some of my friends and family from not having time to go visit with them or hang out. But, the truth is, this is probably the most important thing in my life right now. And if I don't get my obesity under control now...well things could get really stinkin ugly. I've been extremely blessed so far, to have not had to deal with a lot of obesity related health concerns. So I am not trying to take that for granted any more!
The Ironman Challenge may kill me, or at least my poor sore toosh from all the spinning. But I know if I complete this, I will FEEL like an Ironman. :) so far, today is the 5th day f the Ironman Challenge and in that length of time I have walked/jogged 10 out of the 26.3 required, biked 38 out of the 112 required, and swam 60 laps out of the 85 required! And I have 9 days left. The bike/spinning is the hardest because I am sooooo not used to those tiny seats!! And it's hurting me pretty bad! But I'm fully confident in the rest of it. The walking/jogging is a challenge because of the Plantar Faciitis I have in both feet, but it has actually not been as bad as I thought it would be!!
Thanks for reading and thanks for your support!!
<3 Honor
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Day 60: Two months going on Forever!
Well...two months of healthy living are in the bag!! I would say that I can't believe it, but I can! I've worked really hard and for the most part I've busted some tail to get here. It's so nice to hear people tell me they are proud of me, but for once in my life I'm actually proud of myself!! I wonder what the NEXT sixty days will bring...it could Definitely get interesting!
So today is the fourth out of fourteen days of the ironman challenge. My tooshy is so feeling it!! I thought I was NEVER going to get anywhere with that darn bike tonight! But somehow, I got in 14 miles! Whew!! And I am EXHAUSTED for it too!! As a matter of a fact, I have been home at least twenty minutes and am in my car and can't muster up the energy to go in!! Plus, my feet are really killing me. I think I could go in and seriously go straight to bed!! That's not good! I need my dinner!
Today was a pretty good day. It honestly went by so fast I can't believe it has been a whole day already! I worked a short shift today, and then I visited with miss Ariel, while I ate lunch, and then I came to the gym. Tomorrow will be a MUCH longer day! I have to work ten hours AND find the time to go to the gym!
Good night all. I'm exhausted and I just have to get my booty in the house!!
<3 Honor
So today is the fourth out of fourteen days of the ironman challenge. My tooshy is so feeling it!! I thought I was NEVER going to get anywhere with that darn bike tonight! But somehow, I got in 14 miles! Whew!! And I am EXHAUSTED for it too!! As a matter of a fact, I have been home at least twenty minutes and am in my car and can't muster up the energy to go in!! Plus, my feet are really killing me. I think I could go in and seriously go straight to bed!! That's not good! I need my dinner!
Today was a pretty good day. It honestly went by so fast I can't believe it has been a whole day already! I worked a short shift today, and then I visited with miss Ariel, while I ate lunch, and then I came to the gym. Tomorrow will be a MUCH longer day! I have to work ten hours AND find the time to go to the gym!
Good night all. I'm exhausted and I just have to get my booty in the house!!
<3 Honor
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Day 59: Slow Day
Whew today has been a LAZY day! I'm pretty sure I haven't done anything constructive today besides filing my taxes! but I have busted my tooshy for the past few days and I am extremely sore! So it's back to the grind stone tomorrow.
I forgot to share my mom's results yesterday. She lost another 3 pounds! I'm so proud if her!
Sorry so short tonight, but I've still got more to do tonight before bed!
<3 Honor
I forgot to share my mom's results yesterday. She lost another 3 pounds! I'm so proud if her!
Sorry so short tonight, but I've still got more to do tonight before bed!
<3 Honor
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