Day 142: Weigh Day

Oh, oh...I was so excited to see what the scale had for me today. I wanted so badly to hit the 270's and....I DID! 277.8 woot, woot! That means this was a pretty good week, even though it could have been much BETTER! I always wonder how big the numbers could be if I did exactly perfect all week. I never do though. I'm a cheater, but the little cheating is how I stay on target! Lol! I'm fully aware that that doesn't make a luck of sense, but I'm ok with it ;-)

Today was a good day. I always seem to have good days when it's a good weigh day. It just sets the tone for the rest of the day. And today I felt thinner! I'm fully aware that I have a LONG way to go, but it's nice to feel GOOD!

I got quite a bit done around the house today. I can feel the heat coming on that my vacation is almost over (only 2 days left!) and I'm sad about it! I wish I could have a whole nother week lol. But that's not reality. I've got to go back to work until late June when I get another 9 days off for a big wedding that I'm shooting and then Jamie and I plan to go to the lake for a few days after that. I'm ready! Are we there yet?! I'm not feeling very patient right now! Haha

I talked to my momma for a bit today and found out that she's down to 215! I'm so proud of her! And she's very excited to be so close to 1durland :-) she hasn't weighed under 200 in more than 20 years! Wow! So keep her in your prayers! She's working hard and I'm super excited for her.

I have a lot planned for tomorrow so I wonder of I'll get HALF of it done! Haha I guess we'll see! Have a good night!
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Day 141: Spaghetti Brains

Today was one of those fairly uneventful days. Lol. I didn't get hardly anything accomplished because I slept to late and then puddled around the house. I did, however, make a gigantic batch of spaghetti for small group bible study, our group had to move to Mondays because we were conflicting with the leaders children's ball practice schedule. Wow that was a mouth full! Lol.

So anyways, since I've been on vacation, I volunteered to cook both times because I normally work and can't make anything. Making a large quantity of food like that is no easy task! But I did sneak in some healthy on everyone. :-) I used a spaghetti sauce that has a serving of vegetables in a cup of the sauce. Very cool! And it did NOT taste like it. Plus I used lean ground beef in the sauce. :-) yep, I'm sneaky like that!

I love going to bible study, but even more when I've missed church that week. It makes me feel connected. Our lesson right now is about being in the word and spending more time connecting with God on an individual level. I've really got to step up and get on this bus. Because one of my very large spiritual downfalls is not spending enough time reading the bible and studying it.

Have a good night! Weigh day tomorrow! I pray that I'll be in the 270's even if only by a pound :)
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Day 139 & 140: Wow...I Did It Again!

Ok, apparently I am incapable of posting a blog everyday these days! I don't know what has gotten in to me! This blog is as much for me as it is for you! So I have seriously got to step it up!

The past two days have been ok. Today was much more productive than yesterday. I delivered the Winnie The Pooh cake yesterday to a very happy client, and then ended up watching Make It or Break It half of the day! Pitiful! When Jamie got home he helped me put in our living room light (which has been sitting in a box for a few weeks!) and I was really impressed with how much I liked it! Lol, I know that sounds weird, but we've been using lamps for a little while and I love lamp lighting...but I didn't realize how much I missed the big overhead light! And the cool thing is that ever since we moved in we had this weird looking light fixture that was connected to a dimmer, but for some reason the dimmer didn't work. Well...with the new light IT WORKS! And I love it! Yea, I know it's just a silly dimmer...but I don't complain about where I find my happiness! LOL!!

So anyways, the other day I went to the doctor (you know...the lady doctor) and I haven't to see this particular doctor in 6 years, (I actually hadn't planned on seeing him again, because I wasn't a fan of his professionalism, but I had to see someone and didn't want to go to Cape. So anyways!!....LOL....when I checked in with the receptionist, I asked her to check my file and see when it was exactly that I was there before. She told me 2006, and then I asked her what my weight was then and she said 283...and on my visit (in the middle of the day), I weighed at 282. So that may not seem like any big deal to anyone else...BUT to me that means I am the lightest I've been in 6 years!! That's awesomeness! Of course, that also means I gained 69 pounds and then lost 70...but I gained the 69 pounds over 5 and a half years and lost it in just under 6 months! Now, if only I could get my commitment level back where it needs to be so I can start seeing some good numbers again!

Like I said earlier, today has been a productive day. I was able to get rid of a bunch of junk and did some serious organizing! I still have QUITE a ways to go, but I'm definitely happy with my progress today. I also did pretty well with my food today too, so that puts me in a really good mood!

I've been really struggling this week with food. It seems like I always am and I hate that! I wish I could just stay focused and not give in, but my resistance SUCKS! And this week has been one of the worst. I keep craving stuff that is no good, and no amount of "trickery" is going to stop it. I either give in, or ignore it. And I'm not good at the ignoring part. For me...self discipline in the gym is way easier than self-discipline in my diet. I don't know why! I haven't been to the gym as much as I would have liked to this week either, but if I'm going to get this place back in order by Thursday, then I have to sacrifice my gym time a little.

I missed church this morning and I was really bummed out about it. I could NOT get my body to go to sleep last night. I ended up being awake at 5am! So I slept straight through church. That really stinks! Especially since I have to work next Sunday morning so that I will be able to go to my handsome little nephew's birthday party next Sunday night. I'm making him a Power Rangers cake and he's totally going to LOVE it. :) I can't wait to put it together for him!

I guess I better get off of here and wrap up some things for the night and try to get to bed before to awful late!

Night!
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Day 138: Procrastination!

Wow, today was fairly unproductive! Ok, not THAT bad, but I could have DEFINETELY gotten a lot more accomplished, but seemed to have a crazy bad lazy day!

I had a cake to made and it did get finished, but I had to stay up super late because I got started so late on it.
I spent most of the day sitting on my duff because I had a headache and felt just kindof all over Bleh! That's not really an excuse and because of it, I pretty much wasted a whole day. The good thing is that the cake turned out cute and it's DONE!

I did get to see my good friend Ariel for a while today though. :-) She was really nice to bring me one of those digital converter boxes because we had satellite when all of that went down and I honestly never thought there would be a time when I didn't have satellite. But I got so tired of paying WAY to much for it, and since we had Netflix I just shut off the satellite. So now after having it off for a while I really don't miss it much, except to see a few favorite shows, many of which are online or will be put on Netflix after the season is over. But I was realizing that I could see a lot of stuff on the regular local channels, so I started talking about one of those boxes and she offered to let us borrow it. :-) Now I just have to get a good antenna, because at this point the choices are pretty limited. We got Fox or Fox...lol! But that's ok too, because my momma has a antenna that they aren't using that she said I could have! So it all just kindof worked itself out pretty well! I love it when stuff like that happens :-)

Jamie had military duty today. This is his last drills with his unit. He turns his equipment in this weekend. He was just going to get out and that be that...but now he's seriously considering the reserves if they offer him a sign-on bonus. That scares the 'you know what' out of me because a nice big sign-on bonus means Afghanistan next year. I would be so proud of him to serve our country over seas, but at the same time I would live in fear of his return. Afraid the whole time that he wouldn't return, and then when he did, terrified that he would be so different that we wouldn't be able to pick back up our lives. It goes both ways. And every single man tells his wife that he won't let it change him, or it will be ok, or whatever to pacify her before he leaves. But some come back the same and some don't. Geez!! It terrifies me!

So anyways, yea...that was my day in a nutshell...now I'm exhausted and headed to bed, so I can get up and deliver this cake tomorrow! :-)

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Day 136 & 137: Space Out

Ok...do I guess I totally spaced out yesterday and completely forgot to write a blog. I think I'm LOSING it! Lol

It's been a pretty good couple of days. I haven't gotten as much done as I would have liked, but it seems like I always expect more of myself than I can actually pull off. :-)

I grilled lunch yesterday and it was super good! And then I had Applebee's for dinner...not so good! GOSH!

And then today I had a really yummy salad for lunch. I had bought some little mini turkey pepperonis and thy were super good! Dinner wasn't such a hot choice though. I had bible study and I made homemade chili. Oh my! It was really good...but definitely not a smart choice.

I've been pretty busy trying to organize and clean things. So that's pretty much it for now. Lol.

Night!
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Day 135: Weigh-Day

Ok, this is my first official weigh day since the end of the competition. And I know I should have been doing better and staying 'on it' more, but I think I needed that short time of more relaxed rules for myself, because I've come a long way, and I definitely don't want to do anything to go dee my progress, and I have so much MORE to do.

I honestly stepped on that scale praying to see the 282 again. Because I fluctuated up after the competition with water retention and poor choices. So I was kindof just hoping for a clean slate! And lo and behold...the scale gave me 280...I was shocked...I'm about to be in the 270's. Oooooh MY GOODNESS!!!!! I don't even know what to think about that. Is been SOOOO long! And I'm SUPER excited about it! :-)

Today at work was a funny day...when I worked yesterday I noticed that I didn't have not a single appointment scheduled for pics today. Our company is soooooo focused on sitting that I was FREAKED out! So I posted on facebook and by the time I got to work I had a full schedule! The one hour I though I wouldn't have anybody had booked by someone else online! So no boring day for me today!! I ran around like a chicken with my head cut off!!

After work I headed straight to the gym and did some weight training. I'm trying really hard to make myself do more weight training because that's really important during weight loss and something I find terribly easy to leave out of my workouts! I don't do free weights yet. Mostly because I'm afraid of looking like an idiot out there. So I'll save that for when I've lost more weight. I do the machines. Cindy, my trainer for the competition, made me out a paper in the beginning showing all of the machines and what I did on them each time we did strength training together. I pulled up that list tonight to see where I was and make sure I was building up and was QUITE shocked and how much more I can do from the beginning! I'm pushing myself more now because I know that the more muscle I have, the more calories my body will burn. And I need all the help I can get!! I also found out that it is insanely difficult for a woman to 'bulk up' without taking enhancers or steroids. And that's all I have really been worried about so I mean business now! Lol

Have a good night!
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Day 133 & 134: Not becoming a habit!

I PROMISE this is not about to be becoming a habit! LOL. I have a really good reason for not blogging yesterday. So here goes... Easter Sunday...the studio's schedule wasn't to bad for the first half of the day, so I was able to go to church with my s and my parents in Bloomfield. After church Daddy actually asked if we wanted to go get something to eat...we were pretty stoked about that because he rarely has the energy, so we jumped on that opportunity! We ended up at a buffet styled steak house and I had very small portions and didnt get wild and crazy, but I could have definitely made healthier decisions. After lunch I went straight to work and was feeling a rumble in my tummy, but I thought I had eaten to much. By the time I said goodbye to my last customer I felt like I was definitely going to be sick! So I put out a closed sign and headed to the restroom. I stayed there forever! I really thought as soon as I got up I would be in trouble. I was dizzy and feeling my stomach lurch. I stayed there for 45 minutes with nothing happening and decided to try to go close the studio real quick so could get home and lay down...but I didn't make it out of the bathroom :-( it was bad. B.A.D.

I finally made it back to the studio, but grabbed a trash bag just in case, because I didn't get that instant feeling of 'better' I still felt TERRIBLE. And I didn't make it through closing before I was sick again. At that point I was weak and feeling pretty miserable, so I mustered up every ounce of energy I had and finished up so I could leave.

When I walked in my front door at 8pm I laid down on the couch and didn't get up a single time until 9:15 this morning!! I felt better this morning, but still definitely not on my 'A' game. I only had a 4 hour shift at work, and by the time I made it through that, I was feeling pretty yucky again.

I had purchased a little $40 grill at Wal-Mart and was really wanting to put it together today and grill my dinner since my grill is all messed up and it doesn't really cook right because of it. It's funny...I spent over $200 for the grill we had, it's all fancy and pretty and has a nice big grilling surface and a little door you can open to add or move charcoal. Yea real nice...until the crappy grill cover came off in the winter and it got all rusted out!! We had it for maybe two or three summers and now it's garbage. And the sad thing is that the base of it is fine! But the part that holds the drawer in at the bottom is a thin price of metal and that rusted, so it's no good now because the whole under side is a gaping hole' what a waste of money! So I got this $40 grill thinking, "Hey if I have to get a new one every year I can afford that!" but you know what? I put that puppy together this afternoon and it's pretty sturdy! I spent less than $10 for a tarp and a bungee cord to lay over it and keep it covered and I'll bet you that $50 lasts me a heck of a lot longer than the other grill! And the kicker is, after I put it together I noticed that the grilling surface is almost as big as the old one was!!

So anywho, I got that done, and that took my energy that I had...so it's rest and relaxing for this sick girl for the rest of the night...no grilling on my new grill tonight, because I feel like doodoo and had to eat something light. Boo. Lol.

Tomorrow is my last day of work before my "Spring Cleaning" vacation and I'm stoked! I'm going to be burning a LOT of garbage and donating anything else we don't need! My hubby is a pretty bad hoarder (he hides it so I don't find it til later, that sneaky man!) so we had lots of JUNK!

Fun times...
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