Today was a stressful day. One of the top dogs of our company was supposedly in our district. No one knew where he was or what exactly he was doing. So I spent my entire work day freaked out. It's not that I don't do my job or anything at all like that. These people just have a history of going in and telling people all kinds of crap and most, if not every last one of them could not even THINK about doing my job. It's annoying. I take pride in my work. And I don't like some arrogant top dog coming around and shaking things up! I went to lunch with my honey and my sissy and it was great! I had to many calories though...so that meant a teeny tiny dinner. I try really hard to make sure I'm eating at least SOMETHING every three to four hours so I can keep my metabolism in gear. So if I make a poor decision early in the day, that means skimping the rest of the day, and I dont like that!
They called an emergency conference call after lunch and told us that four of our studios would be closing (not mine, thank God) and something over 300 are closing in the whole company! We have over 3000 studios so they are taking out the least profitable ones so they can use those resources elsewhere. I can't say that I think it's a bad idea, because I think it's a great idea. But it sure shook up my district and has everyone in pins and needles.
So the big Whig is still supposed to be in our area tomorrow, but I think he went back to the home office because of this new studio closure mess. I do t know, but I only work 4 hours tomorrow so yippee!!
Zumba was fun tonight, but I started yawning and kept on yawning over and over!! I don't know what was up with my body, but it got to a point that it was actually PAINFUL! I stuck it out for and hour and a half and then Elizabeth and I decided to go sit in the sauna and relax our muscles. :-)
Sleep tight!
<3 Honor
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Day 93: Weigh-In number Thirteen
Thirteen weeks...that's three months of changing my life. Never being perfect, but striving to do better all the time. So the question for me was...did I manage to pull a negative number on the scale on the unlucky thirteenth week? Well...yes I DID! In fact, I got one of the best numbers I've had in a few weeks and pulled out a 3.8 pound weight-loss!! So I am now at 290.4, which puts me at a 59.4 pounds total lost! I'm so excited that I will most likely be back in the 280's next week!!! I haven't been in the 280's in THREE years! Another couple of interesting things is that I checked BMI, and it has gone down 10 points! Wow! So now I'm just a little over 6 points away from being OUT of the Morbid Obesity Category. I figured it up and that will be somewhere around 245 pounds. So that's a new goal :-) it was actually a wake-up call to realize that I've been morbidly obese for over the past 6 or 7 years! I sure didn't realize that!! My other interesting thing is that I measured today and I have lost a FOOT (12") off of my body!!!! That was my second Inches goal. :-) my next one is two feet so that one will take me a while!
I'm doing it! I'm REALLY doing it!! I can't WAIT to get into the 270's!! I haven't been there in more than 4 years! Even longer than that I think! It makes me wan to go run around the block! Lol. But I would be arrested since I'm in my PJ's and Lord know things would be shaking all over!! Haha
So after my relaxing morning, I headed to Dexter with my sis to meet my parents for lunch and we had a really great time! My dad's were up a lot! And he was in a really good mood!! Afterward we got to go visit with a cousin of mine and I really enjoyed that too! Then it was time to head home and get ready for my workout. :) today was Ypump and Zumba and I worked my butt off!! Then I headed straight to ladies bible study.
Now, I am headed to Dexter to work out with my mama as usual. It has been a really great day, and I've been on cloud nine!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor
I'm doing it! I'm REALLY doing it!! I can't WAIT to get into the 270's!! I haven't been there in more than 4 years! Even longer than that I think! It makes me wan to go run around the block! Lol. But I would be arrested since I'm in my PJ's and Lord know things would be shaking all over!! Haha
So after my relaxing morning, I headed to Dexter with my sis to meet my parents for lunch and we had a really great time! My dad's were up a lot! And he was in a really good mood!! Afterward we got to go visit with a cousin of mine and I really enjoyed that too! Then it was time to head home and get ready for my workout. :) today was Ypump and Zumba and I worked my butt off!! Then I headed straight to ladies bible study.
Now, I am headed to Dexter to work out with my mama as usual. It has been a really great day, and I've been on cloud nine!
Have a good night!
<3 Honor
Monday, February 27, 2012
Day 92: Funeral & Dad & Cake
Today I started my day off by going to the funeral of a friends step-dad. I wasn't really close to him, but the friend is the same friend I spoke of a few days ago that met me at the gym and wanted me to help her workout and give her tips on how I was losing weight. The funeral was really hard for my sister and I because we almost lost our step-dad last year. So while we were sitting there it just really hit home. My step-dad has been in my life since I was 11, and to me...he's Dad. He's the only father figure I've ever had and I love him with all of my heart! So coming that close to losing him was extremely difficult. He's not out of the woods yet, in fact, he'll probably never be the way he was before he got sick. But because he did get so sick and lost 100 pounds (down to 124 at his lowest and he's 6'2") in a six month span and he just kept getting worse and worse and weaker and weaker and it just came to a point to where my sister and I both were beginning to prepare ourselves for what seamed to be inevitable at that time. I remember thinking that he had given up, and mom told me one day that he was in so much pain that he would cry out to God to just take him home. It killed me! I felt utterly helpless and didn't even know what to say to him, but I wanted him to just be better!
So late last summer the VA finally got him a motorized scooter, because he is pretty much confined to a wheelchair except to make short transfers from the house to the car and such. The day he got the scooter...he got some of his independence back. And even though he's lost so much of his vision that he can't really see very well at all, he still rode that scooter all over the place. And that's when he started getting better. He started to get his will to live back, and he started gaining weight. My parents were making bi-weekly trips to St. Louis cause his blood count kept dropping to the point that he had to start getting blood transfusions every two to four weeks and now they've made it only monthly visits and this is the second or third month in a row that he hasn't had to get a transfusion! My parents actually had to go to St. Louis today so I guess that's why this was on my mind so much today. Oh and he's up to 176 pounds now and is starting to get a little bit of a belly back. :) I don't know if the doctor's would say that's good, but at least he's getting some meat back on his bones!
So yea, we went to that funeral and all of the past 18 months came flooding back to me. At this point we have so much hope towards my dad's recovery, but a funeral sure did get me thinking about stuff.
After the funeral I had to rush home and get a cake iced and decorated for a new friend of mine that I go to Zumba with and she's the sister-in-law to one of my girls in the studio. She's renewing her wedding vows tonight and needed a cake, so I told her I would love to make it:) now its 4:30 and I've got the cake all finished and chilling and setting up so I can drop it off when I head to The gym. :)
Speaking of which, I better wrap this up and get headed that way! Have a great evening my friends! And thanks for being there and lifting me up when I'm down!
<3 Honor
So late last summer the VA finally got him a motorized scooter, because he is pretty much confined to a wheelchair except to make short transfers from the house to the car and such. The day he got the scooter...he got some of his independence back. And even though he's lost so much of his vision that he can't really see very well at all, he still rode that scooter all over the place. And that's when he started getting better. He started to get his will to live back, and he started gaining weight. My parents were making bi-weekly trips to St. Louis cause his blood count kept dropping to the point that he had to start getting blood transfusions every two to four weeks and now they've made it only monthly visits and this is the second or third month in a row that he hasn't had to get a transfusion! My parents actually had to go to St. Louis today so I guess that's why this was on my mind so much today. Oh and he's up to 176 pounds now and is starting to get a little bit of a belly back. :) I don't know if the doctor's would say that's good, but at least he's getting some meat back on his bones!
So yea, we went to that funeral and all of the past 18 months came flooding back to me. At this point we have so much hope towards my dad's recovery, but a funeral sure did get me thinking about stuff.
After the funeral I had to rush home and get a cake iced and decorated for a new friend of mine that I go to Zumba with and she's the sister-in-law to one of my girls in the studio. She's renewing her wedding vows tonight and needed a cake, so I told her I would love to make it:) now its 4:30 and I've got the cake all finished and chilling and setting up so I can drop it off when I head to The gym. :)
Speaking of which, I better wrap this up and get headed that way! Have a great evening my friends! And thanks for being there and lifting me up when I'm down!
<3 Honor
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Day 91: Donut Holes are the devil!
I started my day out great! I had a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast, I went to church, had a great time there! Then I dropped by the gas station for a diet coke (I didn't even have one yesterday) and some Sun Chips...yea things were great! I even passed up the donut shelf again...even though my mouth was watering for them! And then it was time to head to work...and then it happened...I pulled in to my favorite donut place and got some donut holes. I ate them with tears in my eyes (pitiful!) and as soon as I stopped, I felt DISGUSTING! My stomach started rumbling...my head started hurting (bad) and I was miserable!! I went on to work and was there maybe 15 minutes before I had to run to the bathroom to be sick. Wow. That's craziness right?! And let me tell ya...I was reminded ALL DAY LONG of how STUPID that rash decision was!! I skipped lunch...primarily because I used my lunch calories on the donut holes, but also because I was still really nauseated! Here it is 8:00 at night and I'm STILL feeling yucky! So, needless to say...no more donut holes! Possibly ever!
Other than that my day was pretty good! I was nice and busy at work. Had great kids and families and ha some great sales! And on my lunch break I got some fruit and a juicer and can't WAIT to try that out! I'm starting with fruit, because I know I like fruit :) and then I'm planning to integrate some vegetables juices in to the mix because I DEFINITELY need more GREEN in my diet! And I got to share a lot of my weight-loss knowledge and stories with a really great Chica that is in my Wal-Mary right now for tax time.
So today is Sunday, which means I haven't worked out in two days and always feel Bleh at this point. But it also means I'm headed to work out with my momma after I try to get a bite to eat. :)
Wish me luck!! And have a great night! I get to make another cake between tonight and tomorrow so that will be fun!
<3 Honor
Other than that my day was pretty good! I was nice and busy at work. Had great kids and families and ha some great sales! And on my lunch break I got some fruit and a juicer and can't WAIT to try that out! I'm starting with fruit, because I know I like fruit :) and then I'm planning to integrate some vegetables juices in to the mix because I DEFINITELY need more GREEN in my diet! And I got to share a lot of my weight-loss knowledge and stories with a really great Chica that is in my Wal-Mary right now for tax time.
So today is Sunday, which means I haven't worked out in two days and always feel Bleh at this point. But it also means I'm headed to work out with my momma after I try to get a bite to eat. :)
Wish me luck!! And have a great night! I get to make another cake between tonight and tomorrow so that will be fun!
<3 Honor
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Day 90: 3 months!!!
Today marks a milestone!!! Three months! If I was in AA I would totally get a special chip for this. :) Today was an awesome day!! I stayed really busy at work and had really great kids and really great sales, which is always the formula for a great day! I got to have lunch with friends and I'm always excited to have company for my lunch hour!! And then I had two different people make comments this evening that just topped it all off! One of the CSM's in my store, that's one of my buddy's said to me, "Honor, you're getting so skinny!" I laughed out loud and said, "what are you talkin about lady? I don't have the S word in my vocabulary...It's more like, 'less pudgy'" Bahahahaha. But seriously...it was great! And I still have a Loooooong ways to go!!
Then my last customer of the day comes in and we do the session and I was visiting with her while I was editing her portraits and I hadn't mentioned at all about my journey to lose weight, and she said, "You've lost quite a bit of weight since the last time I was here, haven't you?" THAT...MADE MY YEAR!! I will NEVER forget How I felt when she said that!! So, how long does it take for someone you don't know, just an acquaintance, to notice your transformation? Well that depends on the person...but for this Chica...it's 90 days!!!! What am AWESOME way to celebrate my 90th day! I think that's BETTER than a chip!! :))) I think I'll be all smiles for the rest of the night!!
I topped off my night with a very nice visit with/dinner with my sis after work. It's so much fun to go to dinner with her. :) I always laugh and have a great time! And tonight was no exception! In fact, I think we might have even laughed more than usual! We were having fun trying to guess the ages of various people that worked in the restaurant and were AMAZED at how far off we were on the people who were younger than us! Wow! 17 & 18 year olds are really looking Way more mature than they should be these days!!!! But we sure had some great laughs about it. :)
My second cake for the week was received by a very happy customer and it turned out great! I'll post a pic to the bottom of my blog tonight since I forgot to last night. Have a good night! I hope you're planning to go to church in the morning! I am!
<3 Honor
Then my last customer of the day comes in and we do the session and I was visiting with her while I was editing her portraits and I hadn't mentioned at all about my journey to lose weight, and she said, "You've lost quite a bit of weight since the last time I was here, haven't you?" THAT...MADE MY YEAR!! I will NEVER forget How I felt when she said that!! So, how long does it take for someone you don't know, just an acquaintance, to notice your transformation? Well that depends on the person...but for this Chica...it's 90 days!!!! What am AWESOME way to celebrate my 90th day! I think that's BETTER than a chip!! :))) I think I'll be all smiles for the rest of the night!!
I topped off my night with a very nice visit with/dinner with my sis after work. It's so much fun to go to dinner with her. :) I always laugh and have a great time! And tonight was no exception! In fact, I think we might have even laughed more than usual! We were having fun trying to guess the ages of various people that worked in the restaurant and were AMAZED at how far off we were on the people who were younger than us! Wow! 17 & 18 year olds are really looking Way more mature than they should be these days!!!! But we sure had some great laughs about it. :)
My second cake for the week was received by a very happy customer and it turned out great! I'll post a pic to the bottom of my blog tonight since I forgot to last night. Have a good night! I hope you're planning to go to church in the morning! I am!
<3 Honor
Day 89: Cake, cake, cake!
Today was great. I had a short day of work in Cape. Then I had a scrumptious chicken salad from Chick-fil-a for lunch. Yum yum. And then I headed home to work on some roses for my zebra cake that is being picked up tomorrow. I had to take a break and go deliver the Barbie cake and I ended up eating with my friends Ariel & Matt. But I was really good! Ariel and I split the entree :)
Then I came back home to get the zebra cake all put together. I was REALLY happy when I made my marshmallow fondant, because it came out almost perfect! So I finished the cake up by around 9:30 and had a little bit of time to hang out with my precious 3 year old nephew.
So, all in all, I had a pretty great day. Now I'm laying in bed, and ready to get some rest before a long day tomorrow! I'm definitely not looking forward to the weekend because I have two kind days of work and no chance to really get a good workout in until Sunday night. Tomorrow night I get the pleasure of cleaning the kitchen up from the hurricane that flew in tonight. :-)
Have a great weekend!
<3 Honor
Then I came back home to get the zebra cake all put together. I was REALLY happy when I made my marshmallow fondant, because it came out almost perfect! So I finished the cake up by around 9:30 and had a little bit of time to hang out with my precious 3 year old nephew.
So, all in all, I had a pretty great day. Now I'm laying in bed, and ready to get some rest before a long day tomorrow! I'm definitely not looking forward to the weekend because I have two kind days of work and no chance to really get a good workout in until Sunday night. Tomorrow night I get the pleasure of cleaning the kitchen up from the hurricane that flew in tonight. :-)
Have a great weekend!
<3 Honor
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Day 88: The epidemic!
I realized something that kind of boggles my mind today. I watch all kinds of different weight-loss shows, and documentaries, and read people's stories and so many of them have a common concern that I never really realized. When they finally take the first step to truly changing their lives for good almost all of them have a very similar concern...they are afraid for their lives and literally are starting the journey because they think they will die really soon if they don't.
That thought NEVER crossed my mind. Not once! I have been extremely blessed with a pretty low amount of medical concerns in my lifetime and have never dealt with the blood pressure, diabetes, heart problems, or any of the other obesity related concerns that other people do. It was never about the length of my life, but always about the Quality of my life that concerned me. I'm just not happy as a fat girl. Ok, wait I am a happy person, who is extremely thankful for the Outpouring of blessings I have been given! I just don't feel like I live up to my tried potential that God has for me as a morbidly obese person.
I think that, (and I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings here) every day I lived in my body and overate, and didn't exercise and stayed satisfied with my lifestyle, EVERY day I feel like I was sinning. I was poisoning my body, and committing a slow suicide. And I am absolutely POSITIVE that that behavior is not pleasing to God.
My sister was watching this show about people who are more than 600 pounds and most of them are holed up in there homes, many unable to even get out of bed and definitely not able to leave their homes without assistance, and some of these people are crying out for help! I don't understand...bed ridden or at least house ridden..someone (usually a family member) is bringing this person their food. How difficult is it to STOP BRINGING THEM THE FOOD THAT IS KILLING THEM!! I mean REALLY! I understand that the pleas for whatever the person might be used to would be hard to deal with, but we are talking about MASSIVE amounts of food these people are feeding their loved ones. It's really sad. And what's even sadder to me is that there are so SO many people 'in hiding' that are dying and no one is doing anything to stop it. I have mental issues with food that caused me to get to where I was. So I know for a fact that these people need mental help! I am so deeply affected by this problem in our world that I can't even begin to tell you how much this bothers me!
Ok, I think I'm done with my rant for now. So believe or not, I've actually had a really great day! Lol, I'm sure that is very hard to believe considering all of the stuff I just threw out there, but I feel rejuvenated! Even though the normal outside world has no idea what I'm doing or how far I've come already, the people in MY world know. And that makes all the difference. At work today, I had a customer call, that I've known since her first baby was born and now she's almost family because her nephew married my cousin! I think he's her nephew...lol. Whatever, they're related! So I love when they come to see me and she called to book an appointment with me, but the first thing she said was, "So how's your journey goin girl?" I LOVE IT! :-) And she told me how proud she was of me and we chatted for a bit, but she really made my day. :) I can't wait until I've lost enough that when I run in to people I haven't seen in a while and they have to take a double take. :-))) that will be the day!!
Well I guess I was long winded today, because this is the longest blog I've had in a while!! I still have lots to do today, including a two hour visit to the gym and bible study tonight!
Have a great evening and enjoy this BEAUTIFUL day!!
<3 Honor
That thought NEVER crossed my mind. Not once! I have been extremely blessed with a pretty low amount of medical concerns in my lifetime and have never dealt with the blood pressure, diabetes, heart problems, or any of the other obesity related concerns that other people do. It was never about the length of my life, but always about the Quality of my life that concerned me. I'm just not happy as a fat girl. Ok, wait I am a happy person, who is extremely thankful for the Outpouring of blessings I have been given! I just don't feel like I live up to my tried potential that God has for me as a morbidly obese person.
I think that, (and I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings here) every day I lived in my body and overate, and didn't exercise and stayed satisfied with my lifestyle, EVERY day I feel like I was sinning. I was poisoning my body, and committing a slow suicide. And I am absolutely POSITIVE that that behavior is not pleasing to God.
My sister was watching this show about people who are more than 600 pounds and most of them are holed up in there homes, many unable to even get out of bed and definitely not able to leave their homes without assistance, and some of these people are crying out for help! I don't understand...bed ridden or at least house ridden..someone (usually a family member) is bringing this person their food. How difficult is it to STOP BRINGING THEM THE FOOD THAT IS KILLING THEM!! I mean REALLY! I understand that the pleas for whatever the person might be used to would be hard to deal with, but we are talking about MASSIVE amounts of food these people are feeding their loved ones. It's really sad. And what's even sadder to me is that there are so SO many people 'in hiding' that are dying and no one is doing anything to stop it. I have mental issues with food that caused me to get to where I was. So I know for a fact that these people need mental help! I am so deeply affected by this problem in our world that I can't even begin to tell you how much this bothers me!
Ok, I think I'm done with my rant for now. So believe or not, I've actually had a really great day! Lol, I'm sure that is very hard to believe considering all of the stuff I just threw out there, but I feel rejuvenated! Even though the normal outside world has no idea what I'm doing or how far I've come already, the people in MY world know. And that makes all the difference. At work today, I had a customer call, that I've known since her first baby was born and now she's almost family because her nephew married my cousin! I think he's her nephew...lol. Whatever, they're related! So I love when they come to see me and she called to book an appointment with me, but the first thing she said was, "So how's your journey goin girl?" I LOVE IT! :-) And she told me how proud she was of me and we chatted for a bit, but she really made my day. :) I can't wait until I've lost enough that when I run in to people I haven't seen in a while and they have to take a double take. :-))) that will be the day!!
Well I guess I was long winded today, because this is the longest blog I've had in a while!! I still have lots to do today, including a two hour visit to the gym and bible study tonight!
Have a great evening and enjoy this BEAUTIFUL day!!
<3 Honor
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