Day 160: Humbled

Today was a good day. I state relatively busy at work, so the day didn't drag. I went to have lunch at my sister's house and since she is off on the weekends now, she already had my lunch in the microwave when I got there. :-) I could get used to that! I had a Healthy Choice Steamer and some multi-grain Pringles with a yogurt. Yum! And one of the reasons I went to her house is because I totally forgot to make the food I said I would or our church dinner tonight *Sponsered by our small group* so it was pretty important that I bring what I said I would! Lol. So she came to the store before my lunch and helped me get the ingredients I needed for Broccoli Cauliflower Salad mmmmMmmm!!!! Lol. And I made it on my lunch break. :-)

Then I only had a few hours of work left before I headed to church. I haven't been on a Saturday night in a while and I absolutely LOVE my Saturday night Worship! So the reason we were having a dinner was as a thank you to some men who are incarcerated in the Chaffee jail. Yep. You heard me right. The Chief of police over there comes to Terra Nova and he has been bringing 6 men to the church once or twice a week for a while now and they have been doing the construction of our church! (It's an old skating rink that we are remodeling and it was a dilapidated mess a year ago and it has come a LONG way in a year) they are not forced to come, but they do, and they have put a lot of hard work into our church and never even been to a service! So we got it arranged so that they could come I
Church and their families were invited and we had a thank you dinner afterward. Four of the men came. These are men who have had Jesus poured into them during this construction process and they have learned a lot. And at the end of the service ever single one of them want forward to start a journey of life change. It was AMAZING! My sister and with me and we were both overwhelmed by emotion. I mean, we all sin, we all have done bad things, and some of us have done things that could land us right there next to those men had we gotten caught. So it was definitely a humbling experience that left me shaken and craving a closer relationship with God even more!!

On another note: I didn't do to bad on my calories! Lol. I had some good food and stuck right around 1800 for the day. I'm not sad about that!

I'm exhausted and have a million things to do that I won't get done. Lol. So night night!
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Day 159: The Greek is NOT on my side! Lol

Today was better. I set out with a determined mine and a busy day. I worked all day so that keep me busy. I had a granola bar for breakfast, I know I should be having some oatmeal or something like an egg white scramble, but most mornings that's just not practical for me. As I've said before, I'm not an early riser.

So I had my Nature's Valley granola bar, which I used to think wasn't filling at all, but if you wait 15 minutes after you eat, you'll realize that you're not hungry anymore! Besides the fact that I'm usually not really hungry for breakfast in the first place.

They have these new chips called Chip-Ins that are made out of popcorn and I LOVE them. I can't buy them very often, because I usually eat way to many. But I did good today.

For lunch I had a 270 calorie Premade chef salad and I decided to try Greek yogurt. Epic Fail. Lol. I got this kind that had strawberry flavoring in it and got a banana thinking I could mix it together and it would be super yummy. Uh...negative....it tasted more like sour cream with strawberries and bananas added! Yuck! Lol. But I ate it like a good little girl.

For dinner, one of my cousins and her hubby, and their super cute baby, and my sis all went to the China Buffet. I do alright there usually because they have the grill where you can have them cook fresh for you and I always do that. But I did have some butter pecan ice cream and a little bit of cheesecake. Ahhhh. Haha, but I had the calories left, so no shame here.

All in all, I feel like the day was a success. No exercise, because it was a 10 hour work day and after dinner I had a cake to finish, which turned out beautiful. So I'm happy. :-)

Have a great day tomorrow!
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Day 157 & 158:No More Excuses

Well yesterday I went on a nature walk with a friend of mine and it was really nice. And then I went and had WAAAAAAAAY toast calories at Denny's. I was very disappointed in myself afterwards. And then today I made some homage muffins and those weren't to bad on calories, but I let Jamie talk me into Pizza for lunch and I had Ramen Noodles in the afternoon. GOSH!! Why is it that it's so hard to make good food choices!! I've been doing this rodeo since late November, I know that I can do it...yet I keep failing over and over again!

Food has always been my thorn. And with my knee being injured so that I can't burn calories the way I need to I'm going the wrong way to easily. It's very frustrating! I need my knee to get better and stay that way. It makes me crazy how easily a pound comes in when it is so HARD to take off!

I need a competition to enter. Lol. It seems to make things so much easier! But no, that's exactly why I have to do it on my own. Because I have to learn how to do it without having someone or something else drive me. I never expected it to be this much harder after the competition, but the truth is, I am failing. And I hate it! I do really great in the morning and afternoon and then by early evening I start craving and snacking and I blow it.

I pray that I can do what I need to do to see that number start to go down again. I am NOT happy with where I am, and to reach the goals I have set for myself I have GOT to get into gear.

I think I will adopt the Biggest Loser Mantra from the season that just ended. No Excuses. I make them one after another. Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to embrace it and make it count. I have to. Because I can't be stuck in this body.

Good night friends say a prayer for me if you will :-)
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Day 156: Something New

I tried something new today. You have to understand that I go in to work at 10. So I usually stay up until midnight or later (usually aim for midnight) and get up around 9 o get ready for work. So my schedule is a little different from most people. I usually work until 7 or 8, and then if I go to the gym before I come home I get home around 9 or 9:30 and then I eat dinner....then I need to be up for 2 hours after I eat...it's midnight...see...I can't hardly change that. It's just the way my schedule goes. But even if I make it to bed at midnight I get up at 9 that's 9 hours of sleep...if I go to bed at 11...I still get up at 9...that's 10, and I'm thinking more than my body needs...but I CRAVE sleep! It's doesn't matter what time I go to bed, I just can't seem to get up before 9, and it's honestly usually closer to 9:30, then I end up running around like a chicken with my head cut off and not getting to sit down and eat breakfast. What a mess!

So I did it all different today. I took a shower last night. And then I went to sleep way later than usual...so I was afraid that might screw my plan up. But I usually wake up naturally between 8 and 8:15. I dot know if it's the sunlight coming in through the windows or what, but recently I've been like that almost every day. And I did today too! But instead of rolling over and catching another hour or so of sleep I went ahead and got up. I took care of my animals, had a time for bible study, made myself an omelet/scramble for breakfast AND packed my lunch...of course I was running a little late by the time all was said and done, but hey, one thing at a time!! Lol.

So I should be weighing in this morning, especially since I didn't do it last Tuesday...but it's not good. My ankles are swollen, I've been sick for nearly the past two weeks, which oddly for me means I gained weight, and things just aren't pretty. But I am back on the bandwagon. For real. I've wasted to much time per the last month and haven't seen nearly the results I anticipated before hand. No more excuses. Ok, well maybe a few, but time to get back on teach 100%.

Maybe I need to push mow my yard. Lol. That burns some serious calories! We actually have to push mow because we don't have a rider, but I like talking my hubby into it because he needs the exercise! Lol!!

After work I went to the gym and did Zumba for the first time in two weeks. I was really scared. I went in to it telling myself that I was going to be careful and not push to hard just to test the waters. About 15 minutes in, my knee started bothering me. I pushed through to 30 minutes and then decided I better call it a day for today. Now that I'm home my knee is still bothering me, but not really super bad. I've got to get this knee back in to shape!

I think I have sit here and watch two or three Biggest Loser episodes and now it's nearly 1:00 in the morning and I'm thinking I should have already been in bed! Lol. Jamie and I are planning to go to this place tomorrow that I've never been to that has a boardwalk and fishing. I'm going for the scenery and to take pictures. Jamie is going to fish! Lol! I'm ready to go! But right now, I'm exhausted!

Good night!
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Day 155: Interesting...

Well today has been interesting. I went to work and a little free I had been there I got a call from my DM letting me know that two of the top people in our company submitted their resignations today. I don't know what that means as of yet, but of course my company has been struggling financially to meet its goals and expectations because nearly every large corporation in the nation has been struggling and many folding Orr the past few years. And I'll be the first to admit that it freaks me out! I don't know what I would do if this wasn't my job. My whole world would change. I've threatened to find something else before, but I always end up back at the basics. I have a really nice schedule flexibly that I would lose, I get 21 paid days off a year that I have earned from working here for so long, and I love what I do 85% of the time.

After work I went to the gym for a little bit. I haven't been there in a whole because I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off and of course my knee has been a big concern for nearly two weeks now. It's really weird...some days (like today) I have very little knee pain, and then on others it's nearly unbearable. All I know is that I can't lose weight of I don't exercise. I am not good enough with my diet to lose on diet alone, not to mention the fact that I don't even know if that's possible for me since it's so hard to get the weight off in the first place! Lol.

After my short stop at the gym I headed to small group bible study. We had baked potatoes for dinner, so I kept pretty low on my calories today so that I wouldn't blow them out of the water tonight. And all in all I think I did really well with that!

I think I mentioned before that we started a new bible study called 40 Days in The Word. If I didn't then I did now! Haha. And I have to say...I'm really enjoying it!! It's a study that's helps you learn to read AND study the bible and the man who put it together very obviously knows his stuff! So I look forward to learning a lot over the next few weeks!! The people that are a part of my small group bible study are all pretty stinking amazing. I love the time I get to spend with them and find myself a little sad when it's over and I know I have to wait another WEEK to see them again. :( But this week we are making dinner for some men who have been working on the construction of our church and I'm excited for it! We will do that Saturday night, so I have to do a little bit of juggling my work schedule to be able to be there.

Now I'm home and it's late and I need to get a couple of things done really quickly and get off to dream land!

Good night friends!
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Day 154: A Special Lady & A Gallbladder Mess!

Today has been a fairly eventful day. I went to church this morning and my pastor had this time during our morning worship when he says if God puts any particular person or need on your heart to go pray with them. I was just excited to have Jamie at church with me for the first time in a while so I had just planned to stay put, because I know he gets a little uncomfortable if I leave him alone. And right behind us the preachers wife comes. She Embraced us both in a loose hug and said she felt that God wanted her to come pray with us because she knew that we both yearned to have a child. Man, I'm telling you right now, that's all it took for the flood gates to open and me to start bawling like a little baby! No one has ever prayed for us like that for that specific reason. And I didn't even ask. She just knew! And the words of her prayer were just beautiful and they touched my heart. She is an amazing wife to our pastor and an amazing woman of God.

After church, Jamie and I went to eat lunch and my sister was texting me and telling me how her gall bladder was bothering her more than usual and this is the third day in a row. And she was in some pretty intense pain! I called a girl in from work and she covered my shift for me today so that I could go talk her into going to the hospital. She starts a new job tomorrow so she really needed to confirm that it was her fall bladdernd, find out how bad it was, and hopefully get some pain medicine. The problem is that when she has gone to the ER before, they check her in (she doesn't have insurance) and they don't even run any tests or ANYTHING! What of she was dying or something?!? The last time she went to the ER the doctor on duty told her she needed to schedule an ultrasound with a doctor the next day...uh hello? No insurance! They won't schedule testing without full payment! So she needed to be tested IN the ER..,I was beginning to think that just wasn't possible...but today, we went to a different hospital. And they didn't even ASK about insurance until AFTER she was treated. I thought that was awesome! I felt like she got treated as any other patient would be. And she was treated VERY well! The staff was AMAZING and they had her an X-ray and an ultrasound within 30 minutes of her getting called back! Plus they pumped her full of fluids and gave her some pain meds interveiniously (sp?) and gave her a prescription for some pain meds. Overall, I thought it was a very good visit and she also got a referral for a surgeon. So hopefully, as soon as her new insurance kicks in from her new job, she'll be able to finally get this taken care of!!

I'm now home and it's late and I'm super tired and have a busy day to go tomorrow. Good night friends!
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Day 152 & 153: Still mending

Well, I'm starting to feel a little better. I have done awful as far as calories go the past week or so. The only thing I've been able to drink is Sprite. And I can't stand to drink Diet Sprite.

Not I mention that my eating choices have been garbage most of the week. I have got to get better and get back on the wagon! My knee is still bothering me so my exercise has been seriously lacking. It has just been bad all around!

The crazy thing is that I haven't been eating a lot, yet the scale says otherwise! This journey is definitely not easy, but it is WORTH it! The amount of things I will gain from a healthier body and lifestyle far out way the sacrifices involved in getting there...but I will NEVER say this journey was easy THAT'S for sure!

I don't even think I've logged in to www.myfitnesspal.com in like THREE days! But I logged in today and did pretty good! I had orange sherbet after dinner and I swear I could eat a whole tub of that stuff! 90 calories per half cup sure does add up! Haha

Good night!
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