Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 64: Hand-to-Mouth Disease and Overeating

Today has been a fast day so far...I've been at work. I love it when my work day speeds by! That just makes me a happy girl. But even though it's already after 5, I have quite a bit of things left to do on my 'To Do List' for the day. Most important of all, I have to work out! The first week of the Ironman Challenge is over and we are headed into the second week. In Week one I completed 70 of the 85 required swimming laps, 10 of the required 26.2 walking/running laps, and 54 of the 112 cycling miles. If I do as well this week, I really think I'll finish! The cycling has been hard on my tooshy, which I've already shared, but I think the walking is the hardest physically. My feet are so jacked up! And I sincerely pray that, as the weight comes off, I find relief with my feet. I love the idea of being a runner and completing 5k's or maybe even a 10k or more! But with my feet the way they are now...that will most likely never happen. The crazy thing about this Ironman thing is that I honestly feel like I'm slacking on my workouts! I know that it's really mostly because Zumba burns a TON of calories and walking and spinning don't. But I feel like I'm actually pushing my body HARDER with less results! And that just stinks! So yea, I'm ready to be done with this and get back to my way of things. :)

My eating choices are what I believe got me to 350 pounds. I don't Quite understand it because I wasn't lazy and I have NEVER been a binge eater. It's like I just naturally had a low metabolism from the get go and that just did me in. I am 100% aware that I was never a healthy eater. In the other hand, on an average day I also didn't consume 5000 calories. And I haven't been sedentary my whole life. So finding the real answer as to why I became obese in the first place, may never be a real reality for me. However, I do know that I have eaten a whole lot of garbage in my lifetime. I love pizza and burritos and almost anything sweet along with a ton of other things that are made out of junk. But I never stopped at the drive thru and had a burger on my way home to dinner, I never ate a whole large pizza by myself None of those sad stories you hear apply to me. The truth of the matter is that most likely one of the only reasons I'm overweight as an adult is because I am addicted to sweet and salty processed food. But it's not just that, I can sit and over eat on almonds or Sun chips or something that's 'healthy' that I enjoy too. It doesn't matter if it's healthy, you still can't over eat! But I want to. I'm a muncher. I like to 'snack'. It got worse after I quit smoking almost two year ago. I was used to my 'hand to mouth' being busy with a cigarette. So long after the cravings for nicotine faded away, I still had this Issue with feeling like something was missing. I still had hand-to-mouth disease!

Pre-portioned snacks and meals are key for me. Otherwise, I will over eat, long after my body signals that it's not hungry anymore. Even as I sat here writing this blog entry I was eating Almonds out of a bag, instead of taking the time out to pre count them, and I probably ate two servings! That's how bad I am! But at least it was almonds and not something else!! Haha

Thanks for keeping up with me :) The messages I get humble me. I can't believe that silly old Honor could ever inspire someone. I feel like I still have so much growth to do mentally and so much shrinking to do physically ;) but I'll get there! Day 64 is soon to be history and Day 65 is on its way!

4 comments:

  1. I like this post. You're thinking your way through this and that is important. I even had to give up the portioned out snacks if they were triggers for me to overeat. For example, I love the peanut butter chocolate Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches but I can't be trusted not to have three of them in a day.

    So, I very rarely buy them. I'm always learning something more about myself and why I eat the way I do.

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    1. I completely understand! I hate that I can't seem to stop myself sometimes until it's to late! But I just have to keep reminding myself that this is a learning process and I can and WILL do better next time...I'm not going to be perfect, because that's just not realistic for me! But I CAN do better!!

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  2. I have ate a whole large pizza by myself... and bags of chips and tubs of dip... I call these the devil... it is really hard for me to not over eat chips and pizza... Congrats and excitement for you as you have reached another goal :) and a big Thank You for starting this journey cause honestly if you hadn't started something I prob. would still be on my butt making excuses and over eating and still the same size I was. So THANKS!

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    1. I can't believe you have eaten a whole large pizza! Lol, you're stomach isn't big enough! Love ya!! And I am super proud of you for getting started!! :)) You are awesome!

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